Saturday, June 28, 2008

好像会掉下来


三个月前买的机票,25号那天早上起飞了。这一次背包到泰国北部清迈。两个小时五十分钟的飞行过程,我都在梦里。不知道这会是一个怎样的旅程,到了再算吧,反正我有八天的时间去想,也可以什么都不想。
我想让这一次的旅程难忘一点儿,所以应该做一点儿什么特别的。
云其实很厚,飞机每次穿过云的时候,机身都会摇晃,有时还会产生自由落体的感觉;而多啦A梦的故事里,大雄和宜静总是戴上竹蜻蜓飞到天上,慵懒地躺在云层上;我其实也很懒,从飞机的窗口看出去,我也很想躺在云上,云端应该会比较刺激,好像很浪漫好像会掉下来。
如果掉下来,不知道会不会粉身碎骨,但我能确定的是,如果掉下来的时候你也在我身旁,我想我们会飞起来。
怎样飞?就这样飞起来!
I bought the air ticket 3 months ago, which departs on the 25th Jun. This is the first time I backpack to Chiang Mai, Thailand. It takes me 2 hours and 50 minutes in the flight, I do nothing in the flight, only in my dream. What is gonna happen in this journey, I don't really care about it. It doesn't really matter cause I have 8 days to think of it, or not.
But I like to do something to make this trip unforgetable......
Clouds are thick, the flight is shaking every time it passes through the clouds, and I sometimes even feel free fall; I remember that in the story of Doraemon, Nobita and Shizuka used to fly up to the sky and rest on the clouds. I am actually a lazy person, I wish I could also rest on the clouds, I look out from the window, what if I stay on the clouds? Is there an end of each cloud? The precipice must be romantic, like falling down.
If I really fall down, will I break to a few pieces? But I am very sure that, if you are with me when I'm falling down, we must can fly up again... You save my soul...
How to fly? Just like this, now I'm flying!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

<另一个人> 词曲:Fry Hew

这一首歌,是昨天写的。

特别送给爱过我的人,和我爱过的人。

曾经在一起的那些时光,是快乐的;

如果有生之年我没有失忆,我会永远记得;

那些回忆,都是潮湿的。

Lyrics/ Compose by Fry Hew

I completed this song yesterday. Its actually for all those loved me and I loved. I remember all those happy time. And I will remember always as long as I still have my memories.

All the memories are wet.

Monday, June 23, 2008

When I'm Not Around


When I'm not around...
1) Strictly NO smoking
2) Strictly NO clubbing/ pub
3) Yum Cha before 12am
4) Every night must be at home after 11:55pm
5) NO speeding
6) Study hard

Love,
Fry

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Cry On Me


以前看王家卫的《东邪西毒》,我总是着迷于王药师的那“醉生梦死”,一种喝了会失去记忆的酒。不知道是不是我贪玩,所以觉得失忆很好玩;还是当时候的我,其实认真想忘掉一些什么。
长大以后开始会喝酒,会喝酒不是上瘾,是因为工作环境有顾客请喝,是因为常常在国外公干总有什么老板或经理请喝酒,或者是朋友有时候也会邀喝酒。
每一次都有人醉,灯光昏暗吗?却也五光十色,却也以一种阴沉的方式闪烁着。
每一次都有人呕,柠檬止吐吗?却也酸涩万分,却也以一种讽刺的方式鼓励着。
幸好我没有从王药师手上接过“醉生梦死”,醉了,整个世界在旋转,极度讨厌那种不能控制自己的感受;也因为拥有记忆,所以更明白第二天要全新。
看见你吐,看见你为自己和母亲的关系而伤怀,看见你的泪光,允许我给你一个拥抱。
如果拥抱能够让你释怀,放心流下你的眼泪在我的脸上,风干。
Last time, I remember when I watched the Wong Kar Wai's film , I must fell into the Doctor Wong's wine - "drunk", which can make people lost their memories. Maybe I was playful, I thought that loosing memories should be fun; Or I really wanted to forget some sad things.
Drinking, some addicted, some not. I learned to drink, cause my customers always buy me drinks, cause my overseas business partners always buy me drinks, cause my friends also invite me for drinks.
There is always somebody get drunk, is the light too dark? But still colorful, still blinking with sadness.
There is always somebody vomit, will the lemon stop people from vomiting? But still sour, still encouraging like satiring.
Luckily I didn't get the "drunk" wine from Doctor Wong, drunk, makes the whole world spinning, I hate it when I'm fully out of control; That's the importance of memories, to make people understand that the next day is a brand new day.
I've seen you vomiting, I've seen you're feeling sad for the relationship between your mother and you, I've seen your tears, so please allow me to give you a hug.
If giving you a hug may getting over the bad emotion, just cry on me, and let the wind dry your tears on my face.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Sorry Mr Pilot



没记错的话,应该是五月一日吧。毕业以后,我们的第一次聚会。我们到Michelle的家吃火锅。现在大家都各自忙着自己的工作,而我呢?每天呆在家里,无所事事。成绩要等到七月才出,相信大家的心情也是期待着的。下个星期,也就是二十五日,我又飞了,自己背包到泰国北部的清迈,我什么都没有计划,连酒店也还未订,我只买了一份地图,持着YHA国际背包客会员卡,打算到了当地以后,才计划行程。这一次,我只想要一次轻松的旅程,我没有期待什么,除了长颈族会让我兴奋以外。
虽然只是离开短短的八天,但我知道,我会超级想念你,就像鱼想念海洋那样,就像鸟想念天空那样。飞行这一个习惯已经维持了这么久,这一次因为你,所以飞得如此不舍得。
跟上一次去纽西兰一样,机长会报告说:Fry先生,请你把一些思念丢掉好吗?飞机越来越重了。
我就大声回答说: 对不起机长先生,飞机只会越来越重,最多我多补一些燃油费。。。
If I'm not mistaken, we had a gathering on the first of May. That's the first time we met after our graduation. We were having a nice steamboat at Michelles's home. I think everybody is now busy for their life, what about me? Me? Staying at home everyday... Nothing to do... The result is only out in July, we are still waiting for that. Next week, 25 of Jun, I am flying to Chiang Mai, Thailand. This time, I didn't plan anything for the trip, I don't even book a hotel room for myself. I only bought a map, and holding my YHA international backpacker member card, I decided to plan everything once I reached there. For this coming trip, I just want it to be a relax holiday. Beside the Long-neck Village would make me really feel high, I don't expect for anything.
It's just a short holiday, which takes me only eight days. But I know that I will miss you very much, just like how the fish miss the ocean, just like how the birds miss the sky. I have been flying around in these few years, but because of you, I would feel heavy to take off this time.
Just like that time I flew to New Zealand, the Mr Pilot told me onboard: Mr Fry Hew, could you please throw away all your "missing", the flight is getting heavy.
And then I answered him loudly: I'm so sorry about that Mr Pilot, the weight of this flight will only get increase, don't worry, I am willing to pay extra for the fuel surcharge...

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Let Us Fall In Love


自从分手了以后,生活一样这样过。没有什么太大的变化,只是电话少了,简讯少了。
但是这一次的相遇,我觉得我好像又恋爱了。上一次的失败,我得到的答案是“你太迟了。”所以这一次我特别紧张,我不想再迟到了。
虽然你还未给我答覆,但是也谢谢你最近愿意陪我的时光。我很快乐。笑容从我的脸上一目了然,祝福从朋友的嘴里也听得我脸红了。
看这张图片,小女孩把红心气球放开,我想:唯有这样放开,气球才有机会落到爱人的身上。
我的气球,我放了,飘到你的范围里了,你接住了吗?
我爱你。
Single, not attached, my life is still going on, like the other days, just normal. There is no any difference, only the phone doesn't ring as last time, only the text is getting less.
But this time, Cupid let us know each other, which really make me fall in love again. I had an bad experienced, someone told me that "you're too late..." So I would not let myself fail again this time, I am not late.
Even though you haven't give me your answer, but still I thank you for accompanying me recently. I feel glad, where people can see through my happiness from my face, and the greetings from our friends...
Look at the above picture, the little girl is letting go the red-heart-shape balloon, I think: to let our love one to get this balloon, the only way is to let go.
I already let go my balloon, it's now floating around you, will you keep it?
I love you.

Friday, June 13, 2008

Nina Simone

Jangan tinggal aku
Kita hanya lupa
Semua yang kita lupa
Semua yang kita buat
Biar lupa harga
Nafas yang kita sudah gunakan
Kadang-kala bercakap
Dan masa yang kita gunakan
Masa perlu dihapuskan
Tak pernah tahu kenapa semua benda mesti mati
Jangan tinggal aku
Aku
Aku akan bawa kau
Air hujan yang jelas
Dari tempat yang jauh
Di mana tempat yang tak pernah ada hujan turun
Aku akan menerus perjalanan aku
Untuk menghiaskan cahaya dan emas
Aku akan membina sebuah tempat
Dimana semua benda ialah kasih sayang
Dimana kasih sayang ialah Raja
Dan kau adalah Permaisuri
Jangan tinggal aku
Aku tidak akan menangis lagi
Aku tidak akan bercakap banyak lagi
Menyembunyikan aku di satu tempat
Dan aku akan lihat kau senyum
Dan aku akan lihat kau menari
Aku akan dengar kau menyanyi
Dengan suara kau
Biar aku buat semua benda untuk kau
Bayang kau ialah bayang
Bayang tangan kau
Bintang di bawah perintah kau
Jangan tinggal aku

傻瓜

当我感到最无助的时候,她闯进了我的世界,她成为了我的太阳,带给我欢乐。当我傻傻地在编织与她的梦想时,她却告诉我她放弃了。她放弃爱了。宁愿她说不爱我了,也不想听见她说放弃了我。

在放弃与坚持之间,也许她选择了前者,为什么要放弃?

是我不够好吧!我并没有怪她,因为在面对与逃避之间,也许我选择了后者。

逃避。

Friday, June 6, 2008

比谁更快乐

今天不是很快乐。昨天下午刚从中国海南岛回到来马来西亚。今天早上睡到十点才醒。看了今天的报章,关于汽油起价的新闻。中午在房里收拾,从干净到乱,从无中到生有。我看着陪我飞过无数国度的行李箱,里面还有几件未穿过的短裤。明天又要飞了。晚餐和母亲及弟弟去吃日本餐,妈说下一次要带父亲一起来。过后我们去了医院,探望生病的爷爷。最后,我去了魔术师和公主的家,谈了一些未来计划,就一些。然而,今天不是很快乐。

我大概知道原因的。我大概知道原因吧。我大概知道原因了。我知道。

有没有人可以陪我说说话?但是我要飞了,回来再说。说不定我回来的时候,比你更快乐了,再见。