Sunday, November 2, 2008

52 Days Past

已经52天了,这段没有你的日子,我选择了飞行,一直飞,穿梭在不同的国度,可以暂时甭想太多。这一次,我来到中国桂林,介于秋天和冬天之间,凉凉的,阳光在这个时候也显得如此懦弱;什么东西介于你和我之间,漂浮的?感情在什么时候变得如此脆弱?

我真的以为可以忘记你了。但是我身边的人,常问我,像我这样的空中飞人,有恋爱吗?我都回答得如此潇洒,被飞了,有什么关系,可你以为,我真的舍得吗?

看着你和你的新男友的照片,我无言以对。

你以为我真的不想你吗?

Its been 52 days living without you. I choose to fly, keep flying, to different countries, so that I can stop thinking of us for a while. This time, I came to Guilin, China, the weather is between autumn and winter, its cooling, the sun is showing its weakness in the sky; But do you know what is in between us? Something floating? When is the relationship came to the end?

I really thought that I can forget all about you. But the people around me, keep asking me the same question, do I get a lover since I flying like this. I always answered in my cool way, my lover dumped me, it is doesnt matter, in fact, do you think I can take it?

I have nothing to say when I saw the picture of your new boy friend and you, everything comes silence.

Dont you know that I still miss you, do you?

吃东西的时候想你;
在龙潭公园散步的时候想你;
自拍的时候想你;
喝酒的时候想你;
吃百香果的时候想你;
在银子岩里的时候想你;
看钟乳石的时候想你;

乘竹筏漂流的时候想你;
乘游船游阳朔漓江的时候想你;
接到绣球的时候想你;
掉进尧山的水井的时候想你;
看熊猫的时候想你;
看日月双塔的时候想你;

看象鼻山的时候想你;
看花海的时候想你;
看南宁博览会会馆的时候想你;
希望你看见我的笑容的时候,会想起我们以往那段快乐的时光。纵然你放弃了,我知道我还是得生活的。Muaks......
Hope you will think of our past when you see my smile. Even though you have given up, I know I still have to live. Muaks......

Sunday, October 26, 2008

寂寞的空中飞人

接下来,我会继续飞。10月26日至11月2日去中国桂林、11月9日至13日去中国海南岛、11月15日至22日去台湾、11月28日至12月5日去日本北海道。

满满的行程,心情却成了强烈的对比。

穿梭一段又另一段感情中,爱为何总填不满又掏不空?
很快就风起云涌,人类的心是个无底洞
尝试亲吻尝试拥抱或沟通,没有好感再尝试也没有用
大多数人都相同,喜欢的只是爱情的脸孔

爱情的脸孔,长怎样?

我记得那天,巴厘岛的气温高达摄氏38度。我很怕热,汗没有停止的意思,在我快要中暑之际,我终于找到一家卖椰水的路边摊。我喝了。

还是生病了。像是爱情的脸孔。

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

69

夜的宁静/ The night is so silent
是时候好好反省/ It is time to think about it
月的阴晴圆缺就像我的心/ My heart is just like the moon with different shape
夜下着雨/ The night is rainning
天在哭泣/ The sky is crying
不知道何时才放晴/ When does the sunshine come
我忽然非常想念你/ I suddenly miss you so much
你的背影/ Your everything
让我失去了理性/ Makes me loose my rationality
你的放弃/ You gave up
让我迷失了自己/ Made me lost myself
你的离去/ You left me
就像刺青/ Like a tattoo
永远烙印在我的心/ Forever carved on my heart
是如此痛而如此的美丽/ So painful and so beautiful
我努力的想哭泣却哭不出泪滴/ I'm trying to cry but there is no tears
一次又一次的灰心才发现早已麻痹
/ Is my heart paralysis?

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

尼泊尔遗忘之旅 (第一章)

2008年10月11日,我来到了久违的尼泊尔。我是微笑的,但是你带给我的忧伤我还未完全释怀,所以请暂时忘记我的眼神,也请忘记我的招牌笑容。
11Oct2008, I came to Nepal. I am smiling, always. But part of the sadness that you given me is still with me, so please forget about my eyes, and please forget about my smile.

坐在尼泊尔航空班机里,刚好我坐在右边的靠窗位,清楚地一览了喜玛拉雅山脉。上面是雪山,下面是云端;外面是坚强,里面呢?
I am so lucky to sit at the window seat of the right in the plane, so I can view the Himalaya clearly. Up to the top part is snow mountain, the bottom part is clouds; The surface looks strong, how about the deep of our heart?

一名妇女蹲在大路边,面对着外墙,不像在乞讨,是在思过吗?身边的男孩,大热天围着围巾,是内心不够温暖吗?
A woman is sitting on a side of the road and facing the wall, she doesn't look like begging something, is she thinking of her whole life? The young boy put on a scaft in this hot day, is the heart not warm enough?
生活?生活。Life? Life.

亲爱的苹果,你的颜色让我觉得生命是精彩的;亲爱的香蕉,你的形状让我觉得生命是精彩的。谁买了你们,我会不会记住,那没有什么,最重要的是,你让我精彩过,至少,这一刻。
My dear apple, your color makes my life wonderful; My dear banana, your shape makes my life wonderful. I will never remember who bought you, its doesnt matter, you just need to know that, you made my life wonderful, at least, now.

我们是否正在等待着同样的东西?我们用了一生多少时间等待?等待会漫长吗?等待会泪流满面吗?我等待着。
Are we waiting for the same thing? How much time we have been used to wait in our life? Is waiting take times? Is waiting make people cry? I am waiting.

加德满都是尼泊尔的首都,流行服装也在这里盛行。其实挂在身上的布华丽不华丽,因人而异,我只是想知道,内心的华丽。
Kathmandu is the capital city of Nepal, fashion is also running in here. But no matter how nice is a fashion, and how many dress we change, please dont forget to dress up our heart.

兜售笛子的男人。有些东西,我们明知道是如此地困难,却依然坚持着;我相信,总会有人买笛子。
A flute seller. Sometimes, we keep the faith, no matter how hard it is; I believe, there must be someone to buy the flute, give time.

这些电缆线是在和越南的比赛吗?出自人们手下的凌乱,也许乱不过现代人的思想。
Are these cable having a competition with Vietnam's? Look at all these people's creation, how tidy is a human's mind?

你正在做什么?我们的路走到了哪里?
What are you doing now? Where is the way that we walked half?
《尼泊尔遗忘之旅第二章》即将上映。有一种会旋转的东西,转着他们的命运。。。
《Nepal Trip of Forgotten》 is coming soon. Something is rotating, and so is life...

Saturday, October 11, 2008

珍惜一切,就算没有拥有

《非卖品》 我会发表4首新歌噢!也会和大家分享我的生活。虽然没有很伟大的什么,但眼泪是闪烁的。
Please come to the music sharing concert, I will sing and share my life with you.

Name of Concert: Not For Sale
Featuring singers: Bot/ Emily/ Edwin/ Fry
Date: 18 Oct 2008 (Saturday)
Time: 8pm
Address: Gereja Katholik Kristus Cahaya, Jalan 53, Desa Jaya, Kepong 52100, Selangor.

Thanks.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

18 Days Past



已经过了十八天的单身生活,当初以为不能康复的我,心情总算平复得七七八八了。这些日子,很感谢那些陪伴着我的朋友,纵然有些人也完全不知道发生什么事,但就是想说声谢谢。最近我都在旅行社里兼职,兼职的时间性质比较自由,上天是眷顾着我的,而且和同事们也相处得很开心。除了上班,我也在教会里,和事奉心弦这个以音乐做福传的团体一起举办一些活动,活动正在筹备着,等正式宣传的时候,希望大家会多多支持!再过几天,我就飞了,不知道这一次在海南岛会不会遇到一些什么新鲜的事情,我期待着。。。其实,我还想说。。。从前我常常为了工作和爱情,从来都没有主动联络朋友,不知道是不是年纪越来越大的关系,有时候在收拾房间看见过去的东西,我总是回忆起过往。然后我自己在分析着,才发现原来自己的人生分成了这么多段,而每一段时期都有不同的人陪在身边,到头来没有一个是陪我度过全部的。。。或许我这样说,会对不起玫瑰,如果让玫瑰看到了这一段,我大概会被揍个脸青鼻肿吧。我最近在看《溏心风暴》,我知道我是很慢,每个人都在看《家好月圆》了,就只能怪自己忙咯,我也没法像我的朋友那样,只需用几天的时间甚至牺牲睡眠的时间来“煲剧”哈哈!前几天和朋友去唱K,他再多一年就会成为飞机师了!我很期待,他说他会载我飞,飞机坐多了,但是由朋友来开,我真的觉得很兴奋!



这十八天来,你过得好吗?你不再想我了,对吗?



I’ve been living in single life for 18 days, at first I really thought that I can’t take it, but now I finally feel better. I wanna thank those who accompanied me these days, even though some of you don’t really know what happened on me; just give me a chance to say thanks here. I am now working as a part timer in my ex travel agency, I feel comfortable and more freedom as a part timer, and also feel happy to work together with all colleagues. Besides working, I also come back to the church team – Heartstrings to run evangelization and some events, all the activities is still in processing, once I started the promotional tours, hope all of you give a big support! Just another few days more, I will be flying to Hainan Island again, I’m expecting something special to happen in this trip, trying to make the journey wonderful and meaningful… In fact, I wanted to say... because of busy on working and my emotional life, I was seldom looking and yum cha with my friends, I think maybe I’m getting old, sometimes when I clean my room and see some old things, all these make me recall, and back to the past. And then I found out, there are so many different parts in my whole life, and different people were being with me in different parts, at the end, no one was with me throughout the whole life; it is just keep changing new face and new face… I should apologize to Roserose for saying that, if Roserose had read this then I think I will die. I am also watching a Hong Kong drama Hearts of Greed , I know I am very slow, because everybody is already watching the Ga Hou Yue Yuen , but I just don’t have enough time, I can’t watch it every night and sacrifice my sleeping time like all my friends haha! I went to karaoke with my friend in last few days; he will become a pilot soon! I am so exited, cause he said he will fly me! Even though I have so many flying experience but still feeling exited!



18 days past… how are you? You don’t miss me anymore, do you?

Thursday, September 18, 2008

不曾停止飞行

《Never Stop Flying》

01.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia/ Hainan Island, China.
02.10.2008 Hainan Island, China.
03.10.2008 Hainan Island, China.
04.10.2008 Hainan Island, China.
05.10.2008 Hainan Island, China/ Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
06.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
07.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
08.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
09.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
10.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
11.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia/ Kathmandu, Nepal.
12.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
13.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
14.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
15.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
16.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
17.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
18.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal/ Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
19.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia/ Bali, Indonesia.
20.10.2008 Bali, Indonesia.
21.10.2008 Bali, Indonesia.
22.10.2008 Bali, Indonesia/ Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
23.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
24.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
25.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
26.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia/ Guilin, China.
27.10.2008 Guilin, China.
28.10.2008 Guilin, China.
29.10.2008 Guilin, China.
30.10.2008 Guilin, China.
31.10.2008 Guilin, China.
01.11.2008 Guilin, China.
02.11.2008 Guilin, China/ Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

不论飞到多远,我会记得所有我们的画面,可知我多迷信我们。

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Mcgregor Left Me Alone

这是我第一次养的鱼,是打架鱼,是你送给我的。可是十号那晚,你跟我提出分手了。这是我们第二次分手,你说我是你的初恋,你还想和其他人一起看看外面的世界。然后,我们的鱼--麦格礼格,不知道是不是感应到我们的分离,从鲜艳的蓝色和红色,转成了暗淡的深蓝色和深红色。没想到,昨天就死了。像我们的爱情,忽然之间,死了。

你不知道,其实,再过几天,就是我们在一起的三个月纪念日了,我们最后还是跨不过,就死了。

明天的中秋节,我们分裂了。

好想念你。我还记得我们相识的那一天。你记得吗?

还有,你说过:“无论你得了什么病,我都会一直爱着你。” 爱着你。

This is the first time I rare a fish, its a fighting fish, you gave me that. But on the 10th of this month, you told me to break up again. This is the second time you said this, you said I am your first love, you feel like to be with others to experience more. And then, our fish -- Mcgregor, I guess it sensed the broken between us, therefore it changes its color, from sharp blue and sharp red turn to dark blue and dark red. And out of my expectation, Mcgregor dies yesterday. Like our love, suddenly, die.

You dont know, just another few days more, we have been together for 3 months, but still we cant pass it at the end, and die.

Tomorrow is Moon Cake Festival, people get reunion on this day, we break.

I miss you so much. I still remember the first day we met. Do you remember?

And you told me before:" No matter how sick you are in the future, I will always be with you and love you." Loving you.

Friday, August 22, 2008

《比傻瓜还傻》词曲唱:Fry Hew



这是一个真实的故事,我的朋友他失恋的故事。他最伤心的那几晚,我也实在看不过眼,所以一天晚上,我坐在钢琴前面,幻想自己就是这位朋友,从他的角度出发完成了这一首歌。

比傻瓜还傻,我总是觉得,爱一个人太深的时候,就会不小心变成了傻瓜,如果两情相悦,一起当傻瓜是挺浪漫的,但如果只有自己当傻瓜,那真的很傻很傻。。。。。。

This song is based on a true story, it is a love story about my friend. I remember that period when he was really down, I can't stand on it, therefore one night, I played my piano, and imagined that I was my friend, to complete this song.

The song title , I feel that when you love someone really deep, you will become a foolish, if two persons fool together, it shall be a romantic thing, but if you are doing it alone, then it is really foolish......

豆浆油条

那天在中国海南岛,我没有到酒店的西餐厅吃已经包含的早餐,我选择了永和的豆浆油条。这间永和餐厅是我每次到中国必定光临的,传统的热豆浆,配上新鲜的油条,我就喜欢这样!还有一碗甜甜的龟苓膏。太赞了!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Wanderlust VS Je t'aime

记忆是很奇特的东西,我一个人在等待捷运的时候,一些回忆就飘过了。我突然想起我还未认识你之前,我以为我可以就这样一直单身,直到我申请到英国的工作签证,就离开马来西亚,继续流浪的日子,延续上一趟唱游纽西兰的精神。

只是没想到,你让我决定留下来了。

可是马来西亚,到底适合人类居住吗?还是我是异类?

只是没想到,我还是为了你而留下来了。

Memory is something special, when I was waiting for the train at the station, memories came into my mind. I suddenly think of the days before I met you, I thought I will just keep living in single life, until I get the UK working holiday visa, to leave Malaysia as soon as I could, to continue my wanderlust's life, to continue my New Zealand's fascinating trip.

But you made me stay.

Is Malaysia a good place for people to stay? Or am I abnormal?

But still I choose to stay here for you. For you. For you.

For you.

Monday, August 11, 2008

Dont Speak. Dont Hear. Dont See

神赐给了我一切,包括我的嘴巴耳朵眼睛;神也赐给了我动力,包括说话倾听观看。
God gives me everything, including my mouth ears and eyes; God also give us energy, to talk, to hear, to look.

有时候我不想说话,有时候我不想倾听,有时候我不想观看。
But sometimes I don't like to chat, sometimes I don't like to listen, sometimes I don't like to see.

幸好除了这些,我还有一双手,一双可以创造东西和摧毁世界的手;而我的双手却也依赖着我的脑细胞。
Luckily I still have my hands, which can create and destroy things; But still my brain controls my hands.


我的脑细胞知道我有选择任何东西的自由。
I always know that I have my freedom to make any decision.


“自由”是如此地吸引人,无论多么难得到,始终被全人类追随着.
"Freedom" is so attractive, no matter how hard to get it or how far it is, everybody is chasing it crazy.

拥有了自由就可以选择;选择一些让自己看起来比较快乐的事情。
I would like to choose something that make myself look happier.


我也作了我的选择,我选择用双手遮掩我的嘴巴,遮掩我的耳朵,遮掩我的眼睛。
But in the meantime I look for happiness, I cover my mouth, I cover my ears, and I cover my eyes.


请问,请问。有谁可以借我?
By the way, can someone lend me?


借我一双手。

Lend me your hands.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

没有蜡烛还是亮了

昨天是我的二十四岁生日,我做了什么?到时代广场看电影,然后去国家体育馆看Astro新秀决赛,之后去“爱的寂寞”吃夜宵。本来想自己亲手调酒喝的,可是时间也晚了,就想下一次再喝。今晚没有回家,到了女朋友的家过夜,其实有一点怕,因为她妈妈在家,我大概凌晨两点到,进了房间,要去洗澡的时候,结果她妈还是出现了,这是第二次和伯母“正面交锋”,我叫了她一声“安娣”就进入浴室了,吓死我了。。。



我没有收到很多生日礼物,基本上就只有我的女朋友送我,就是上面这张照片 Quicksilver的凉鞋和杯子。她很细心,买到了刚刚好的尺寸给我。从小到大我都不穿凉鞋只穿球鞋的,可是这次我会改改这个习惯了,除了要穿上爱人的细心之外,也要秀一秀我的幸福!鞋子的皮带是猪皮制成的,很舒服。

生日这天刚好是Astro新秀决赛,我和四个好朋友到了国家体育馆现场看秀。其实我从来都没有看电视的习惯,所以对于当天比赛的五位参赛者都不认识,我只认识我最爱的评审包小松,哈哈!看过他们的表演,我心目中的冠军会是林建辉的妹妹 Debby,但是听说她是没有星味和没有观众缘,我个人是觉得不能接受这样的理由,如果昨晚的赛场是美国,相信冠军非她莫数了;至于得到季军的豪仁,评审给他的评语是不会转气所以不会转音而且还常常破音,我真不明白他为何能凭人气就打败Natalie 和 Danny。。。



妈妈刚才问我昨晚是不是在女朋友家睡,又问我礼物是不是女朋友送的,她问我是不是有女朋友了,我否认了。去年的耶诞节和今年的农历新年我也带了女朋友回家,然后分手了。。。



我记得去年的生日,我独自走在纽西兰的首都--风城威灵顿,一整天在闲逛博物馆,为的是等待爱人的一封祝福的简讯,结果。。。十二点过了。。。我还给自己希望,我跟我自己说,马来西亚还没有十二点,再等多一会儿应该会收到。四个小时过了,马来西亚的时间也过了。。。我传了一封简讯问她,她说她忘记了。。。



忘记了。。。我站在风城,任风刮过我的脸。。。刺刺的疼痛,化成麻木;爱情,从盛开到腐坏,从腐坏到尘埃。。。



幸好,那都是过去了。。。



今年很幸福,因为有你,你知道吗?看见你,就好像风筝有风,闭上眼睛,就想海豚有海。虽然今年没有我很爱吃的蛋糕,虽然没有点燃蜡烛,但是我却看见光亮了。。。。。。



你呢?你看见我看见的吗?



Yesterday was my birthday. I went to Times Square for a movie, after that I went to National Stadium for Astro Star Quest 2008, and then went to “The Loneliness of Love” restaurant for supper. At first I wanted to mix my own peach vodka with orange juice, but it was too late, so might be doing that next time. I was not going home, I went to my baby’s house, and in fact I felt afraid because her family is there. If I’m not mistaken, I entered her house at about 2 in the morning. While I wanted to get to bathroom from her room, her mother showed up. That was the second time I met her mother, I called her “aunt” and went for shower, wooo……



I don’t get many presents for my birthday, or I should say that I only got present from my baby. The presents are Quicksilver’s sandal (Carver Le) and glass. She is a real good lover, cause she bought me the exactly size for me without asking me that. I don’t actually wear sandal since I knew how to walk, but I think I need to change this habit now, because I want to wear my “love” and show people my “sweetest and happiness”! Part of the sandal is made by pig skin, it’s so comfortable.



About the Astro Star Quest 2008, I went for the live show with 4 good friends. Everybody knows I don’t watch television, therefore I didn’t know all the 5 Astro stars, I only know one of the judger, and his name is Bao Xiao Song, haha! For me, I will always give the first prize to Debby, but everybody is saying that she’s not a superstar look persons, and fans not really like her, I myself cant accept this kind of reason in a singing contest, if the show was in America, Debby must be the one who win the first prize. The one who got number 3 is Haoren, the judger said that he doesn’t know how to “change his breath”, don’t know how to “change his pitch” and his voice “broke” for few times, so I really don’t understand how can he win Natalie and Danny…..



Just now my mum was asking me did I stay overnight in girl friend’s house, and asked me is the present from my girl friend, and asked me whether I have a girl friend now, I said “no”! I remember that I brought my girl friend home in last Christmas and Chinese New Year, at the end we separated.



I still remember my last birthday in 2007, I walked alone in New Zealand’s capital city, the wind city – Wellington, I was walking around in the museum, just to make the time passing by quicker and waiting for a text from my lover. But…… twelve passed……I still gave myself hope, I told myself, Malaysia is not twelve yet, maybe I will receive her text later. After 4 hours, Malaysia’s twelve also passed by…… I sent her a text to asked her why, she said she forgot……



Forgotten…… I stood in the wind city, to let the wind scratch my face…… Just a little bit pain; Love, from flame to dust……



By the way, they are all passed......



I feel so glad this year, because of you, do you know that? Being with you, it’s like the kite has wind, when I close my eyes, like the dolphin has sea. Even though there was not my favorite birthday cake, even though there was no candles for me, but I’ve seen light……



So how about you? Can you see what I've seen?

Friday, July 25, 2008

Friends......

谁能够划船不用桨?谁能够扬帆没有风向?
谁能够离开好朋友没有感伤?

我可以划船不用桨;我可以扬帆没有风向。
但是朋友啊,当你离我远去,我却不能不感伤。

但是朋友啊,当你离我远去,我却不能不感伤。

Who can row a boat without an oar? Who can hoist a sail without wind direction?
Who can leave good friends without sadness?

I can row a boat without an oar; I can hoist a sail without wind direction.
But friends, if you leave me, I must be sad.

But friends, if you leave me, I must be sad.

Listen to the song...
A song from Michael & Victor: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fSCv2y-v2fg

Monday, July 21, 2008

Broke Up

我一直以为我是活生生的,原来死无全尸。
我一直以为我是活生生的,原来死无全尸。
我一直以为我是活生生的,原来死无全尸。
我一直以为我是活生生的,原来死无全尸。

Monday, July 14, 2008

刺青

那天背包旅行来到泰国北部的清迈,为了让这一趟旅程跟以往的不一样,也为了实现我多年来的梦想,我下定了决心,在我亲爱的右小腿上刺青。这是还未纹之前的美腿,纹了以后的美腿要等下一回分解才曝光,哈哈!每个看到我刺青的人,第一句通常都是问我:“不痛吗?”好吧!既然大家都想知道痛不痛,那看看以下的照片,然后留下你的答案在comments。有三个选择:
That day I backpacked to Chiang Mai, Thailand. I wanted to make that trip different from all my last trips, and to make my my wish comes true, I decided to make a tattoo on my right leg. The first picture is showing my leg before the tattoo, some of you must be asking the photo of the completed tattoo. I will show you that in the next post, hehe! By the way, those who first saw my tattoo always asked me the same question, which is :"does it hurt?" Okay! Just have a look of the following pictures, and leave your answer in the comments, I will let you know! Gotcha!

A 开心到 Not Painful At All And Very Happy

B 痛到 Kill Me Better
C 爽到歪 Ah... Ah... So So High...

Saturday, June 28, 2008

好像会掉下来


三个月前买的机票,25号那天早上起飞了。这一次背包到泰国北部清迈。两个小时五十分钟的飞行过程,我都在梦里。不知道这会是一个怎样的旅程,到了再算吧,反正我有八天的时间去想,也可以什么都不想。
我想让这一次的旅程难忘一点儿,所以应该做一点儿什么特别的。
云其实很厚,飞机每次穿过云的时候,机身都会摇晃,有时还会产生自由落体的感觉;而多啦A梦的故事里,大雄和宜静总是戴上竹蜻蜓飞到天上,慵懒地躺在云层上;我其实也很懒,从飞机的窗口看出去,我也很想躺在云上,云端应该会比较刺激,好像很浪漫好像会掉下来。
如果掉下来,不知道会不会粉身碎骨,但我能确定的是,如果掉下来的时候你也在我身旁,我想我们会飞起来。
怎样飞?就这样飞起来!
I bought the air ticket 3 months ago, which departs on the 25th Jun. This is the first time I backpack to Chiang Mai, Thailand. It takes me 2 hours and 50 minutes in the flight, I do nothing in the flight, only in my dream. What is gonna happen in this journey, I don't really care about it. It doesn't really matter cause I have 8 days to think of it, or not.
But I like to do something to make this trip unforgetable......
Clouds are thick, the flight is shaking every time it passes through the clouds, and I sometimes even feel free fall; I remember that in the story of Doraemon, Nobita and Shizuka used to fly up to the sky and rest on the clouds. I am actually a lazy person, I wish I could also rest on the clouds, I look out from the window, what if I stay on the clouds? Is there an end of each cloud? The precipice must be romantic, like falling down.
If I really fall down, will I break to a few pieces? But I am very sure that, if you are with me when I'm falling down, we must can fly up again... You save my soul...
How to fly? Just like this, now I'm flying!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

<另一个人> 词曲:Fry Hew

这一首歌,是昨天写的。

特别送给爱过我的人,和我爱过的人。

曾经在一起的那些时光,是快乐的;

如果有生之年我没有失忆,我会永远记得;

那些回忆,都是潮湿的。

Lyrics/ Compose by Fry Hew

I completed this song yesterday. Its actually for all those loved me and I loved. I remember all those happy time. And I will remember always as long as I still have my memories.

All the memories are wet.

Monday, June 23, 2008

When I'm Not Around


When I'm not around...
1) Strictly NO smoking
2) Strictly NO clubbing/ pub
3) Yum Cha before 12am
4) Every night must be at home after 11:55pm
5) NO speeding
6) Study hard

Love,
Fry

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Cry On Me


以前看王家卫的《东邪西毒》,我总是着迷于王药师的那“醉生梦死”,一种喝了会失去记忆的酒。不知道是不是我贪玩,所以觉得失忆很好玩;还是当时候的我,其实认真想忘掉一些什么。
长大以后开始会喝酒,会喝酒不是上瘾,是因为工作环境有顾客请喝,是因为常常在国外公干总有什么老板或经理请喝酒,或者是朋友有时候也会邀喝酒。
每一次都有人醉,灯光昏暗吗?却也五光十色,却也以一种阴沉的方式闪烁着。
每一次都有人呕,柠檬止吐吗?却也酸涩万分,却也以一种讽刺的方式鼓励着。
幸好我没有从王药师手上接过“醉生梦死”,醉了,整个世界在旋转,极度讨厌那种不能控制自己的感受;也因为拥有记忆,所以更明白第二天要全新。
看见你吐,看见你为自己和母亲的关系而伤怀,看见你的泪光,允许我给你一个拥抱。
如果拥抱能够让你释怀,放心流下你的眼泪在我的脸上,风干。
Last time, I remember when I watched the Wong Kar Wai's film , I must fell into the Doctor Wong's wine - "drunk", which can make people lost their memories. Maybe I was playful, I thought that loosing memories should be fun; Or I really wanted to forget some sad things.
Drinking, some addicted, some not. I learned to drink, cause my customers always buy me drinks, cause my overseas business partners always buy me drinks, cause my friends also invite me for drinks.
There is always somebody get drunk, is the light too dark? But still colorful, still blinking with sadness.
There is always somebody vomit, will the lemon stop people from vomiting? But still sour, still encouraging like satiring.
Luckily I didn't get the "drunk" wine from Doctor Wong, drunk, makes the whole world spinning, I hate it when I'm fully out of control; That's the importance of memories, to make people understand that the next day is a brand new day.
I've seen you vomiting, I've seen you're feeling sad for the relationship between your mother and you, I've seen your tears, so please allow me to give you a hug.
If giving you a hug may getting over the bad emotion, just cry on me, and let the wind dry your tears on my face.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Sorry Mr Pilot



没记错的话,应该是五月一日吧。毕业以后,我们的第一次聚会。我们到Michelle的家吃火锅。现在大家都各自忙着自己的工作,而我呢?每天呆在家里,无所事事。成绩要等到七月才出,相信大家的心情也是期待着的。下个星期,也就是二十五日,我又飞了,自己背包到泰国北部的清迈,我什么都没有计划,连酒店也还未订,我只买了一份地图,持着YHA国际背包客会员卡,打算到了当地以后,才计划行程。这一次,我只想要一次轻松的旅程,我没有期待什么,除了长颈族会让我兴奋以外。
虽然只是离开短短的八天,但我知道,我会超级想念你,就像鱼想念海洋那样,就像鸟想念天空那样。飞行这一个习惯已经维持了这么久,这一次因为你,所以飞得如此不舍得。
跟上一次去纽西兰一样,机长会报告说:Fry先生,请你把一些思念丢掉好吗?飞机越来越重了。
我就大声回答说: 对不起机长先生,飞机只会越来越重,最多我多补一些燃油费。。。
If I'm not mistaken, we had a gathering on the first of May. That's the first time we met after our graduation. We were having a nice steamboat at Michelles's home. I think everybody is now busy for their life, what about me? Me? Staying at home everyday... Nothing to do... The result is only out in July, we are still waiting for that. Next week, 25 of Jun, I am flying to Chiang Mai, Thailand. This time, I didn't plan anything for the trip, I don't even book a hotel room for myself. I only bought a map, and holding my YHA international backpacker member card, I decided to plan everything once I reached there. For this coming trip, I just want it to be a relax holiday. Beside the Long-neck Village would make me really feel high, I don't expect for anything.
It's just a short holiday, which takes me only eight days. But I know that I will miss you very much, just like how the fish miss the ocean, just like how the birds miss the sky. I have been flying around in these few years, but because of you, I would feel heavy to take off this time.
Just like that time I flew to New Zealand, the Mr Pilot told me onboard: Mr Fry Hew, could you please throw away all your "missing", the flight is getting heavy.
And then I answered him loudly: I'm so sorry about that Mr Pilot, the weight of this flight will only get increase, don't worry, I am willing to pay extra for the fuel surcharge...

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Let Us Fall In Love


自从分手了以后,生活一样这样过。没有什么太大的变化,只是电话少了,简讯少了。
但是这一次的相遇,我觉得我好像又恋爱了。上一次的失败,我得到的答案是“你太迟了。”所以这一次我特别紧张,我不想再迟到了。
虽然你还未给我答覆,但是也谢谢你最近愿意陪我的时光。我很快乐。笑容从我的脸上一目了然,祝福从朋友的嘴里也听得我脸红了。
看这张图片,小女孩把红心气球放开,我想:唯有这样放开,气球才有机会落到爱人的身上。
我的气球,我放了,飘到你的范围里了,你接住了吗?
我爱你。
Single, not attached, my life is still going on, like the other days, just normal. There is no any difference, only the phone doesn't ring as last time, only the text is getting less.
But this time, Cupid let us know each other, which really make me fall in love again. I had an bad experienced, someone told me that "you're too late..." So I would not let myself fail again this time, I am not late.
Even though you haven't give me your answer, but still I thank you for accompanying me recently. I feel glad, where people can see through my happiness from my face, and the greetings from our friends...
Look at the above picture, the little girl is letting go the red-heart-shape balloon, I think: to let our love one to get this balloon, the only way is to let go.
I already let go my balloon, it's now floating around you, will you keep it?
I love you.

Friday, June 13, 2008

Nina Simone

Jangan tinggal aku
Kita hanya lupa
Semua yang kita lupa
Semua yang kita buat
Biar lupa harga
Nafas yang kita sudah gunakan
Kadang-kala bercakap
Dan masa yang kita gunakan
Masa perlu dihapuskan
Tak pernah tahu kenapa semua benda mesti mati
Jangan tinggal aku
Aku
Aku akan bawa kau
Air hujan yang jelas
Dari tempat yang jauh
Di mana tempat yang tak pernah ada hujan turun
Aku akan menerus perjalanan aku
Untuk menghiaskan cahaya dan emas
Aku akan membina sebuah tempat
Dimana semua benda ialah kasih sayang
Dimana kasih sayang ialah Raja
Dan kau adalah Permaisuri
Jangan tinggal aku
Aku tidak akan menangis lagi
Aku tidak akan bercakap banyak lagi
Menyembunyikan aku di satu tempat
Dan aku akan lihat kau senyum
Dan aku akan lihat kau menari
Aku akan dengar kau menyanyi
Dengan suara kau
Biar aku buat semua benda untuk kau
Bayang kau ialah bayang
Bayang tangan kau
Bintang di bawah perintah kau
Jangan tinggal aku

傻瓜

当我感到最无助的时候,她闯进了我的世界,她成为了我的太阳,带给我欢乐。当我傻傻地在编织与她的梦想时,她却告诉我她放弃了。她放弃爱了。宁愿她说不爱我了,也不想听见她说放弃了我。

在放弃与坚持之间,也许她选择了前者,为什么要放弃?

是我不够好吧!我并没有怪她,因为在面对与逃避之间,也许我选择了后者。

逃避。

Friday, June 6, 2008

比谁更快乐

今天不是很快乐。昨天下午刚从中国海南岛回到来马来西亚。今天早上睡到十点才醒。看了今天的报章,关于汽油起价的新闻。中午在房里收拾,从干净到乱,从无中到生有。我看着陪我飞过无数国度的行李箱,里面还有几件未穿过的短裤。明天又要飞了。晚餐和母亲及弟弟去吃日本餐,妈说下一次要带父亲一起来。过后我们去了医院,探望生病的爷爷。最后,我去了魔术师和公主的家,谈了一些未来计划,就一些。然而,今天不是很快乐。

我大概知道原因的。我大概知道原因吧。我大概知道原因了。我知道。

有没有人可以陪我说说话?但是我要飞了,回来再说。说不定我回来的时候,比你更快乐了,再见。