18 Days Past

已经过了十八天的单身生活，当初以为不能康复的我，心情总算平复得七七八八了。这些日子，很感谢那些陪伴着我的朋友，纵然有些人也完全不知道发生什么事，但就是想说声谢谢。最近我都在旅行社里兼职，兼职的时间性质比较自由，上天是眷顾着我的，而且和同事们也相处得很开心。除了上班，我也在教会里，和事奉心弦这个以音乐做福传的团体一起举办一些活动，活动正在筹备着，等正式宣传的时候，希望大家会多多支持！再过几天，我就飞了，不知道这一次在海南岛会不会遇到一些什么新鲜的事情，我期待着。。。其实，我还想说。。。从前我常常为了工作和爱情，从来都没有主动联络朋友，不知道是不是年纪越来越大的关系，有时候在收拾房间看见过去的东西，我总是回忆起过往。然后我自己在分析着，才发现原来自己的人生分成了这么多段，而每一段时期都有不同的人陪在身边，到头来没有一个是陪我度过全部的。。。或许我这样说，会对不起玫瑰，如果让玫瑰看到了这一段，我大概会被揍个脸青鼻肿吧。我最近在看《溏心风暴》，我知道我是很慢，每个人都在看《家好月圆》了，就只能怪自己忙咯，我也没法像我的朋友那样，只需用几天的时间甚至牺牲睡眠的时间来“煲剧”哈哈！前几天和朋友去唱K，他再多一年就会成为飞机师了！我很期待，他说他会载我飞，飞机坐多了，但是由朋友来开，我真的觉得很兴奋！



这十八天来，你过得好吗？你不再想我了，对吗？

I’ve been living in single life for 18 days, at first I really thought that I can’t take it, but now I finally feel better. I wanna thank those who accompanied me these days, even though some of you don’t really know what happened on me; just give me a chance to say thanks here. I am now working as a part timer in my ex travel agency, I feel comfortable and more freedom as a part timer, and also feel happy to work together with all colleagues. Besides working, I also come back to the church team – Heartstrings to run evangelization and some events, all the activities is still in processing, once I started the promotional tours, hope all of you give a big support! Just another few days more, I will be flying to Hainan Island again, I’m expecting something special to happen in this trip, trying to make the journey wonderful and meaningful… In fact, I wanted to say... because of busy on working and my emotional life, I was seldom looking and yum cha with my friends, I think maybe I’m getting old, sometimes when I clean my room and see some old things, all these make me recall, and back to the past. And then I found out, there are so many different parts in my whole life, and different people were being with me in different parts, at the end, no one was with me throughout the whole life; it is just keep changing new face and new face… I should apologize to Roserose for saying that, if Roserose had read this then I think I will die. I am also watching a Hong Kong drama Hearts of Greed , I know I am very slow, because everybody is already watching the Ga Hou Yue Yuen , but I just don’t have enough time, I can’t watch it every night and sacrifice my sleeping time like all my friends haha! I went to karaoke with my friend in last few days; he will become a pilot soon! I am so exited, cause he said he will fly me! Even though I have so many flying experience but still feeling exited!

18 days past… how are you? You don’t miss me anymore, do you?

不曾停止飞行

《Never Stop Flying》

01.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia/ Hainan Island, China.
02.10.2008 Hainan Island, China.
03.10.2008 Hainan Island, China.
04.10.2008 Hainan Island, China.
05.10.2008 Hainan Island, China/ Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
06.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
07.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
08.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
09.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
10.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
11.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia/ Kathmandu, Nepal.
12.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
13.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
14.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
15.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
16.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
17.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
18.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal/ Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
19.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia/ Bali, Indonesia.
20.10.2008 Bali, Indonesia.
21.10.2008 Bali, Indonesia.
22.10.2008 Bali, Indonesia/ Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
23.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
24.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
25.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
26.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia/ Guilin, China.
27.10.2008 Guilin, China.
28.10.2008 Guilin, China.
29.10.2008 Guilin, China.
30.10.2008 Guilin, China.
31.10.2008 Guilin, China.
01.11.2008 Guilin, China.
02.11.2008 Guilin, China/ Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

不论飞到多远，我会记得所有我们的画面，可知我多迷信我们。

Mcgregor Left Me Alone

这是我第一次养的鱼，是打架鱼，是你送给我的。可是十号那晚，你跟我提出分手了。这是我们第二次分手，你说我是你的初恋，你还想和其他人一起看看外面的世界。然后，我们的鱼--麦格礼格，不知道是不是感应到我们的分离，从鲜艳的蓝色和红色，转成了暗淡的深蓝色和深红色。没想到，昨天就死了。像我们的爱情，忽然之间，死了。

你不知道，其实，再过几天，就是我们在一起的三个月纪念日了，我们最后还是跨不过，就死了。

明天的中秋节，我们分裂了。

好想念你。我还记得我们相识的那一天。你记得吗？

还有，你说过：“无论你得了什么病，我都会一直爱着你。” 爱着你。

This is the first time I rare a fish, its a fighting fish, you gave me that. But on the 10th of this month, you told me to break up again. This is the second time you said this, you said I am your first love, you feel like to be with others to experience more. And then, our fish -- Mcgregor, I guess it sensed the broken between us, therefore it changes its color, from sharp blue and sharp red turn to dark blue and dark red. And out of my expectation, Mcgregor dies yesterday. Like our love, suddenly, die.

You dont know, just another few days more, we have been together for 3 months, but still we cant pass it at the end, and die.

Tomorrow is Moon Cake Festival, people get reunion on this day, we break.

I miss you so much. I still remember the first day we met. Do you remember?

And you told me before:" No matter how sick you are in the future, I will always be with you and love you." Loving you.

《比傻瓜还傻》词曲唱：Fry Hew

这是一个真实的故事，我的朋友他失恋的故事。他最伤心的那几晚，我也实在看不过眼，所以一天晚上，我坐在钢琴前面，幻想自己就是这位朋友，从他的角度出发完成了这一首歌。

比傻瓜还傻，我总是觉得，爱一个人太深的时候，就会不小心变成了傻瓜，如果两情相悦，一起当傻瓜是挺浪漫的，但如果只有自己当傻瓜，那真的很傻很傻。。。。。。

This song is based on a true story, it is a love story about my friend. I remember that period when he was really down, I can't stand on it, therefore one night, I played my piano, and imagined that I was my friend, to complete this song.

The song title , I feel that when you love someone really deep, you will become a foolish, if two persons fool together, it shall be a romantic thing, but if you are doing it alone, then it is really foolish......

豆浆油条

那天在中国海南岛，我没有到酒店的西餐厅吃已经包含的早餐，我选择了永和的豆浆油条。这间永和餐厅是我每次到中国必定光临的，传统的热豆浆，配上新鲜的油条，我就喜欢这样！还有一碗甜甜的龟苓膏。太赞了！

Wanderlust VS Je t'aime

记忆是很奇特的东西，我一个人在等待捷运的时候，一些回忆就飘过了。我突然想起我还未认识你之前，我以为我可以就这样一直单身，直到我申请到英国的工作签证，就离开马来西亚，继续流浪的日子，延续上一趟唱游纽西兰的精神。

只是没想到，你让我决定留下来了。

可是马来西亚，到底适合人类居住吗？还是我是异类？

只是没想到，我还是为了你而留下来了。

Memory is something special, when I was waiting for the train at the station, memories came into my mind. I suddenly think of the days before I met you, I thought I will just keep living in single life, until I get the UK working holiday visa, to leave Malaysia as soon as I could, to continue my wanderlust's life, to continue my New Zealand's fascinating trip.

But you made me stay.

Is Malaysia a good place for people to stay? Or am I abnormal?

But still I choose to stay here for you. For you. For you.

For you.

Dont Speak. Dont Hear. Dont See

神赐给了我一切，包括我的嘴巴耳朵眼睛；神也赐给了我动力，包括说话倾听观看。
God gives me everything, including my mouth ears and eyes; God also give us energy, to talk, to hear, to look.

有时候我不想说话，有时候我不想倾听，有时候我不想观看。
But sometimes I don't like to chat, sometimes I don't like to listen, sometimes I don't like to see.

幸好除了这些，我还有一双手，一双可以创造东西和摧毁世界的手；而我的双手却也依赖着我的脑细胞。
Luckily I still have my hands, which can create and destroy things; But still my brain controls my hands.

我的脑细胞知道我有选择任何东西的自由。
I always know that I have my freedom to make any decision.

“自由”是如此地吸引人，无论多么难得到，始终被全人类追随着.
"Freedom" is so attractive, no matter how hard to get it or how far it is, everybody is chasing it crazy.

拥有了自由就可以选择；选择一些让自己看起来比较快乐的事情。
I would like to choose something that make myself look happier.

我也作了我的选择，我选择用双手遮掩我的嘴巴，遮掩我的耳朵，遮掩我的眼睛。
But in the meantime I look for happiness, I cover my mouth, I cover my ears, and I cover my eyes.

请问，请问。有谁可以借我？
By the way, can someone lend me?

借我一双手。
Lend me your hands.

没有蜡烛还是亮了

昨天是我的二十四岁生日，我做了什么？到时代广场看电影，然后去国家体育馆看Astro新秀决赛，之后去“爱的寂寞”吃夜宵。本来想自己亲手调酒喝的，可是时间也晚了，就想下一次再喝。今晚没有回家，到了女朋友的家过夜，其实有一点怕，因为她妈妈在家，我大概凌晨两点到，进了房间，要去洗澡的时候，结果她妈还是出现了，这是第二次和伯母“正面交锋”，我叫了她一声“安娣”就进入浴室了，吓死我了。。。



我没有收到很多生日礼物，基本上就只有我的女朋友送我，就是上面这张照片 Quicksilver的凉鞋和杯子。她很细心，买到了刚刚好的尺寸给我。从小到大我都不穿凉鞋只穿球鞋的，可是这次我会改改这个习惯了，除了要穿上爱人的细心之外，也要秀一秀我的幸福！鞋子的皮带是猪皮制成的，很舒服。

生日这天刚好是Astro新秀决赛，我和四个好朋友到了国家体育馆现场看秀。其实我从来都没有看电视的习惯，所以对于当天比赛的五位参赛者都不认识，我只认识我最爱的评审包小松，哈哈！看过他们的表演，我心目中的冠军会是林建辉的妹妹 Debby，但是听说她是没有星味和没有观众缘，我个人是觉得不能接受这样的理由，如果昨晚的赛场是美国，相信冠军非她莫数了；至于得到季军的豪仁，评审给他的评语是不会转气所以不会转音而且还常常破音，我真不明白他为何能凭人气就打败Natalie 和 Danny。。。



妈妈刚才问我昨晚是不是在女朋友家睡，又问我礼物是不是女朋友送的，她问我是不是有女朋友了，我否认了。去年的耶诞节和今年的农历新年我也带了女朋友回家，然后分手了。。。



我记得去年的生日，我独自走在纽西兰的首都--风城威灵顿，一整天在闲逛博物馆，为的是等待爱人的一封祝福的简讯，结果。。。十二点过了。。。我还给自己希望，我跟我自己说，马来西亚还没有十二点，再等多一会儿应该会收到。四个小时过了，马来西亚的时间也过了。。。我传了一封简讯问她，她说她忘记了。。。



忘记了。。。我站在风城，任风刮过我的脸。。。刺刺的疼痛，化成麻木；爱情，从盛开到腐坏，从腐坏到尘埃。。。



幸好，那都是过去了。。。



今年很幸福，因为有你，你知道吗？看见你，就好像风筝有风，闭上眼睛，就想海豚有海。虽然今年没有我很爱吃的蛋糕，虽然没有点燃蜡烛，但是我却看见光亮了。。。。。。



你呢？你看见我看见的吗？



Yesterday was my birthday. I went to Times Square for a movie, after that I went to National Stadium for Astro Star Quest 2008, and then went to “The Loneliness of Love” restaurant for supper. At first I wanted to mix my own peach vodka with orange juice, but it was too late, so might be doing that next time. I was not going home, I went to my baby’s house, and in fact I felt afraid because her family is there. If I’m not mistaken, I entered her house at about 2 in the morning. While I wanted to get to bathroom from her room, her mother showed up. That was the second time I met her mother, I called her “aunt” and went for shower, wooo……



I don’t get many presents for my birthday, or I should say that I only got present from my baby. The presents are Quicksilver’s sandal (Carver Le) and glass. She is a real good lover, cause she bought me the exactly size for me without asking me that. I don’t actually wear sandal since I knew how to walk, but I think I need to change this habit now, because I want to wear my “love” and show people my “sweetest and happiness”! Part of the sandal is made by pig skin, it’s so comfortable.

About the Astro Star Quest 2008, I went for the live show with 4 good friends. Everybody knows I don’t watch television, therefore I didn’t know all the 5 Astro stars, I only know one of the judger, and his name is Bao Xiao Song, haha! For me, I will always give the first prize to Debby, but everybody is saying that she’s not a superstar look persons, and fans not really like her, I myself cant accept this kind of reason in a singing contest, if the show was in America, Debby must be the one who win the first prize. The one who got number 3 is Haoren, the judger said that he doesn’t know how to “change his breath”, don’t know how to “change his pitch” and his voice “broke” for few times, so I really don’t understand how can he win Natalie and Danny…..

Just now my mum was asking me did I stay overnight in girl friend’s house, and asked me is the present from my girl friend, and asked me whether I have a girl friend now, I said “no”! I remember that I brought my girl friend home in last Christmas and Chinese New Year, at the end we separated.

I still remember my last birthday in 2007, I walked alone in New Zealand’s capital city, the wind city – Wellington, I was walking around in the museum, just to make the time passing by quicker and waiting for a text from my lover. But…… twelve passed……I still gave myself hope, I told myself, Malaysia is not twelve yet, maybe I will receive her text later. After 4 hours, Malaysia’s twelve also passed by…… I sent her a text to asked her why, she said she forgot……

Forgotten…… I stood in the wind city, to let the wind scratch my face…… Just a little bit pain; Love, from flame to dust……

By the way, they are all passed......

I feel so glad this year, because of you, do you know that? Being with you, it’s like the kite has wind, when I close my eyes, like the dolphin has sea. Even though there was not my favorite birthday cake, even though there was no candles for me, but I’ve seen light……

So how about you? Can you see what I've seen?

Friends......

谁能够划船不用桨？谁能够扬帆没有风向？
谁能够离开好朋友没有感伤？

我可以划船不用桨；我可以扬帆没有风向。
但是朋友啊，当你离我远去，我却不能不感伤。

但是朋友啊，当你离我远去，我却不能不感伤。

Who can row a boat without an oar? Who can hoist a sail without wind direction?
Who can leave good friends without sadness?

I can row a boat without an oar; I can hoist a sail without wind direction.
But friends, if you leave me, I must be sad.

But friends, if you leave me, I must be sad.

Listen to the song...
A song from Michael & Victor: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fSCv2y-v2fg

Broke Up

我一直以为我是活生生的，原来死无全尸。
我一直以为我是活生生的，原来死无全尸。
我一直以为我是活生生的，原来死无全尸。
我一直以为我是活生生的，原来死无全尸。

刺青

那天背包旅行来到泰国北部的清迈，为了让这一趟旅程跟以往的不一样，也为了实现我多年来的梦想，我下定了决心，在我亲爱的右小腿上刺青。这是还未纹之前的美腿，纹了以后的美腿要等下一回分解才曝光，哈哈！每个看到我刺青的人，第一句通常都是问我：“不痛吗？”好吧！既然大家都想知道痛不痛，那看看以下的照片，然后留下你的答案在comments。有三个选择:
That day I backpacked to Chiang Mai, Thailand. I wanted to make that trip different from all my last trips, and to make my my wish comes true, I decided to make a tattoo on my right leg. The first picture is showing my leg before the tattoo, some of you must be asking the photo of the completed tattoo. I will show you that in the next post, hehe! By the way, those who first saw my tattoo always asked me the same question, which is :"does it hurt?" Okay! Just have a look of the following pictures, and leave your answer in the comments, I will let you know! Gotcha!

A 开心到 Not Painful At All And Very Happy

B 痛到 Kill Me Better

C 爽到歪 Ah... Ah... So So High...

Me and my lover

好像会掉下来

三个月前买的机票，２５号那天早上起飞了。这一次背包到泰国北部清迈。两个小时五十分钟的飞行过程，我都在梦里。不知道这会是一个怎样的旅程，到了再算吧，反正我有八天的时间去想，也可以什么都不想。

我想让这一次的旅程难忘一点儿，所以应该做一点儿什么特别的。

云其实很厚，飞机每次穿过云的时候，机身都会摇晃，有时还会产生自由落体的感觉；而多啦A梦的故事里，大雄和宜静总是戴上竹蜻蜓飞到天上，慵懒地躺在云层上；我其实也很懒，从飞机的窗口看出去，我也很想躺在云上，云端应该会比较刺激，好像很浪漫好像会掉下来。

如果掉下来，不知道会不会粉身碎骨，但我能确定的是，如果掉下来的时候你也在我身旁，我想我们会飞起来。

怎样飞？就这样飞起来！

I bought the air ticket 3 months ago, which departs on the 25th Jun. This is the first time I backpack to Chiang Mai, Thailand. It takes me 2 hours and 50 minutes in the flight, I do nothing in the flight, only in my dream. What is gonna happen in this journey, I don't really care about it. It doesn't really matter cause I have 8 days to think of it, or not.

But I like to do something to make this trip unforgetable......

Clouds are thick, the flight is shaking every time it passes through the clouds, and I sometimes even feel free fall; I remember that in the story of Doraemon, Nobita and Shizuka used to fly up to the sky and rest on the clouds. I am actually a lazy person, I wish I could also rest on the clouds, I look out from the window, what if I stay on the clouds? Is there an end of each cloud? The precipice must be romantic, like falling down.

If I really fall down, will I break to a few pieces? But I am very sure that, if you are with me when I'm falling down, we must can fly up again... You save my soul...

How to fly? Just like this, now I'm flying!

＜另一个人＞ 词曲：Fry Hew

这一首歌，是昨天写的。

特别送给爱过我的人，和我爱过的人。

曾经在一起的那些时光，是快乐的；

如果有生之年我没有失忆，我会永远记得；

那些回忆，都是潮湿的。

Lyrics/ Compose by Fry Hew

I completed this song yesterday. Its actually for all those loved me and I loved. I remember all those happy time. And I will remember always as long as I still have my memories.

All the memories are wet.

When I'm Not Around

When I'm not around...

1) Strictly NO smoking

2) Strictly NO clubbing/ pub

3) Yum Cha before 12am

4) Every night must be at home after 11:55pm

5) NO speeding

6) Study hard

Love,

Fry

Cry On Me

以前看王家卫的《东邪西毒》，我总是着迷于王药师的那“醉生梦死”，一种喝了会失去记忆的酒。不知道是不是我贪玩，所以觉得失忆很好玩；还是当时候的我，其实认真想忘掉一些什么。

长大以后开始会喝酒，会喝酒不是上瘾，是因为工作环境有顾客请喝，是因为常常在国外公干总有什么老板或经理请喝酒，或者是朋友有时候也会邀喝酒。

每一次都有人醉，灯光昏暗吗？却也五光十色，却也以一种阴沉的方式闪烁着。

每一次都有人呕，柠檬止吐吗？却也酸涩万分，却也以一种讽刺的方式鼓励着。

幸好我没有从王药师手上接过“醉生梦死”，醉了，整个世界在旋转，极度讨厌那种不能控制自己的感受；也因为拥有记忆，所以更明白第二天要全新。

看见你吐，看见你为自己和母亲的关系而伤怀，看见你的泪光，允许我给你一个拥抱。

如果拥抱能够让你释怀，放心流下你的眼泪在我的脸上，风干。

Last time, I remember when I watched the Wong Kar Wai's film , I must fell into the Doctor Wong's wine - "drunk", which can make people lost their memories. Maybe I was playful, I thought that loosing memories should be fun; Or I really wanted to forget some sad things.

Drinking, some addicted, some not. I learned to drink, cause my customers always buy me drinks, cause my overseas business partners always buy me drinks, cause my friends also invite me for drinks.

There is always somebody get drunk, is the light too dark? But still colorful, still blinking with sadness.

There is always somebody vomit, will the lemon stop people from vomiting? But still sour, still encouraging like satiring.

Luckily I didn't get the "drunk" wine from Doctor Wong, drunk, makes the whole world spinning, I hate it when I'm fully out of control; That's the importance of memories, to make people understand that the next day is a brand new day.

I've seen you vomiting, I've seen you're feeling sad for the relationship between your mother and you, I've seen your tears, so please allow me to give you a hug.

If giving you a hug may getting over the bad emotion, just cry on me, and let the wind dry your tears on my face.

Sorry Mr Pilot

没记错的话，应该是五月一日吧。毕业以后，我们的第一次聚会。我们到Michelle的家吃火锅。现在大家都各自忙着自己的工作，而我呢？每天呆在家里，无所事事。成绩要等到七月才出，相信大家的心情也是期待着的。下个星期，也就是二十五日，我又飞了，自己背包到泰国北部的清迈，我什么都没有计划，连酒店也还未订，我只买了一份地图，持着YHA国际背包客会员卡，打算到了当地以后，才计划行程。这一次，我只想要一次轻松的旅程，我没有期待什么，除了长颈族会让我兴奋以外。

虽然只是离开短短的八天，但我知道，我会超级想念你，就像鱼想念海洋那样，就像鸟想念天空那样。飞行这一个习惯已经维持了这么久，这一次因为你，所以飞得如此不舍得。

跟上一次去纽西兰一样，机长会报告说：Fry先生，请你把一些思念丢掉好吗？飞机越来越重了。

我就大声回答说: 对不起机长先生，飞机只会越来越重，最多我多补一些燃油费。。。

If I'm not mistaken, we had a gathering on the first of May. That's the first time we met after our graduation. We were having a nice steamboat at Michelles's home. I think everybody is now busy for their life, what about me? Me? Staying at home everyday... Nothing to do... The result is only out in July, we are still waiting for that. Next week, 25 of Jun, I am flying to Chiang Mai, Thailand. This time, I didn't plan anything for the trip, I don't even book a hotel room for myself. I only bought a map, and holding my YHA international backpacker member card, I decided to plan everything once I reached there. For this coming trip, I just want it to be a relax holiday. Beside the Long-neck Village would make me really feel high, I don't expect for anything.

It's just a short holiday, which takes me only eight days. But I know that I will miss you very much, just like how the fish miss the ocean, just like how the birds miss the sky. I have been flying around in these few years, but because of you, I would feel heavy to take off this time.

Just like that time I flew to New Zealand, the Mr Pilot told me onboard: Mr Fry Hew, could you please throw away all your "missing", the flight is getting heavy.

And then I answered him loudly: I'm so sorry about that Mr Pilot, the weight of this flight will only get increase, don't worry, I am willing to pay extra for the fuel surcharge...

Let Us Fall In Love

自从分手了以后，生活一样这样过。没有什么太大的变化，只是电话少了，简讯少了。

但是这一次的相遇，我觉得我好像又恋爱了。上一次的失败，我得到的答案是“你太迟了。”所以这一次我特别紧张，我不想再迟到了。

虽然你还未给我答覆，但是也谢谢你最近愿意陪我的时光。我很快乐。笑容从我的脸上一目了然，祝福从朋友的嘴里也听得我脸红了。

看这张图片，小女孩把红心气球放开，我想：唯有这样放开，气球才有机会落到爱人的身上。

我的气球，我放了，飘到你的范围里了，你接住了吗？

我爱你。

Single, not attached, my life is still going on, like the other days, just normal. There is no any difference, only the phone doesn't ring as last time, only the text is getting less.

But this time, Cupid let us know each other, which really make me fall in love again. I had an bad experienced, someone told me that "you're too late..." So I would not let myself fail again this time, I am not late.

Even though you haven't give me your answer, but still I thank you for accompanying me recently. I feel glad, where people can see through my happiness from my face, and the greetings from our friends...

Look at the above picture, the little girl is letting go the red-heart-shape balloon, I think: to let our love one to get this balloon, the only way is to let go.

I already let go my balloon, it's now floating around you, will you keep it?

I love you.

Nina Simone

Jangan tinggal aku
Kita hanya lupa
Semua yang kita lupa
Semua yang kita buat
Biar lupa harga
Nafas yang kita sudah gunakan
Kadang-kala bercakap
Dan masa yang kita gunakan
Masa perlu dihapuskan
Tak pernah tahu kenapa semua benda mesti mati
Jangan tinggal aku
Aku
Aku akan bawa kau
Air hujan yang jelas
Dari tempat yang jauh
Di mana tempat yang tak pernah ada hujan turun
Aku akan menerus perjalanan aku
Untuk menghiaskan cahaya dan emas
Aku akan membina sebuah tempat
Dimana semua benda ialah kasih sayang
Dimana kasih sayang ialah Raja
Dan kau adalah Permaisuri
Jangan tinggal aku
Aku tidak akan menangis lagi
Aku tidak akan bercakap banyak lagi
Menyembunyikan aku di satu tempat
Dan aku akan lihat kau senyum
Dan aku akan lihat kau menari
Aku akan dengar kau menyanyi
Dengan suara kau
Biar aku buat semua benda untuk kau
Bayang kau ialah bayang
Bayang tangan kau
Bintang di bawah perintah kau
Jangan tinggal aku

傻瓜

当我感到最无助的时候，她闯进了我的世界，她成为了我的太阳，带给我欢乐。当我傻傻地在编织与她的梦想时，她却告诉我她放弃了。她放弃爱了。宁愿她说不爱我了，也不想听见她说放弃了我。

在放弃与坚持之间，也许她选择了前者，为什么要放弃？

是我不够好吧！我并没有怪她，因为在面对与逃避之间，也许我选择了后者。

逃避。

比谁更快乐

今天不是很快乐。昨天下午刚从中国海南岛回到来马来西亚。今天早上睡到十点才醒。看了今天的报章，关于汽油起价的新闻。中午在房里收拾，从干净到乱，从无中到生有。我看着陪我飞过无数国度的行李箱，里面还有几件未穿过的短裤。明天又要飞了。晚餐和母亲及弟弟去吃日本餐，妈说下一次要带父亲一起来。过后我们去了医院，探望生病的爷爷。最后，我去了魔术师和公主的家，谈了一些未来计划，就一些。然而，今天不是很快乐。

我大概知道原因的。我大概知道原因吧。我大概知道原因了。我知道。

有没有人可以陪我说说话？但是我要飞了，回来再说。说不定我回来的时候，比你更快乐了，再见。

我是越南人

我最近接了一份工作，必须到国外去公干。基本上是高兴的，自从去年十月去了中国福建省以后，我已经没有飞过了。刚刚从越南河内回来，接着还会去其他地方。

2008年5月9日-12日：越南河内
2008年5月17日-19日：柬埔寨金边
2008年5月24日-28日：越南胡志明市
2008年5月31日-6月4日：中国海南岛
2008年6月6日－10日：中国海南岛
2008年6月25日－7月2日：泰国清迈


这些照片是我在越南河内拍的，我不是专业的摄影师，也没有专业的照相机，但是希望和大家分享我看到的。


在河内国际机场，抹地的清洁工人是赤脚的，对我来说是新鲜的，因为在吉隆坡国际机场应该看不到这样有趣的画面。但是话说回来，地面真的是闪亮的。

越南航空是越南的航空公司，以蓝色为主色，标志是一朵黄色的莲花。

这房间很凌乱，很多杂物，而我其实是偷拍的，里面有一张单人“床”，床只是一块木板，木板上没有床褥。。。这是我在河内住的饭店，叫VMQ Hotel，三星级，我的房间是蛮漂亮舒适的，这是我晚上回房间的时候，无意中经过并看见的饭店工作人员宿舍。我觉得，住在里面太辛苦了，至少也该有一张床。。。是不是穷就要这样委屈呢？可以不要电视吗？

河内位于越南北部，有四季之分，但不鲜明。夜晚大概也只有二十几度，会刮风，会下雨，而这位老太太，在路边一家商店前，布置好“床”，然后沉思。。。

我本来想吃路边摊的，但最后还是受不了西餐厅的诱惑，我点了比萨和鲜橙汁，结帐的时候，总共是一百三十五千Dong。

为什么有这么大的蚌？我没有买来吃，但是我问这位女生是否可以拍照的时候，她很有礼貌地点了点头。

夜晚，商店都打烊了。然后路边就会陆续出现售卖电话卡和香烟的小摊子。

海鲜配这些特制的酱料，好好吃。

满地的头发，一路上的理发“店”。越南有一种特别的文化，一条街道上如果是理发的，就全部都是理发的；如果是卖鞋的，就全部都是卖鞋的。

这两个女人的头未免太强了一点。。。

还剑湖，这个画面超有爆点！一对恋人，男的划船，女的。。。女的。。。竟然撑红色的伞！

这是垃圾车，超经典！

河内歌剧院。

这人是想怎样？这是大路耶！

矮凳子也是越南的特色，曲着膝弓着背，可能会吃得比较有滋味。

机车＋气球＝飞不起

芝士雪糕。

电缆线和树枝纠缠不清。

电缆线在市内呈现一种凌乱美。

越南人本来写中文，说越语，但是在被法国统治的那九十多年里，法国人硬把中文改成了法文。

沿途风景。车水马龙。

孩子的头盔被吹走了吗？

交通系统，想怎样就怎样。厉害的是，没有意外。

脚踏车也是一个重要的交通工具。

耕田的生活。农夫的辛酸。人类的文明。蔓延的奢侈。

等待只有等待。

稻田的中央，矗立着装潢豪华的祖坟；生活与耕田，与祖先同在。

下龙湾街上，我看见童话故事里王子和公主的马车。

越南咖啡。先放咖啡粉，倒入热水，压缩，咖啡会滴在杯里，然后再倒进盛有冰块的杯里。咖啡厅还会附送一碟我不懂吃的瓜子。结账的越南小姐很好笑，她看见我的时候以为我是她亲生哥哥而喊了一声。原来越南有和我长相一样的人。

芒果甜筒，好吃！

水上木偶传统表演，呈现越南人的传统生活，一旁有乐队演奏，还有一对男女歌手演唱。

水上木偶是由这一些人操作的。

水上木偶入口处，我的脚是怎么了？

擦鞋童，顾名思义，擦鞋。也许只需要区区的几块马币。但是我自问：如果当时我也穿着皮鞋，我会不会让他擦。

草莓雪糕，赞！

我单身，戴绿帽又何妨？

天宫洞，天然石乳。

螃蟹。

炸春卷。

好吃的。

可怕的肥猪肉。

从天堂岛上俯瞰的下龙湾景色。

天堂岛，越语是Dao Titop。

船头是龙头。

红白间隔灯塔，世界尽头的象征。

下龙湾的地标-接吻的鸡。

船内。

卖水果的人喜欢利用自己的孩子作为工具，以“可怜”吸引游客买水果。水果其实对马来西亚人来说不昂贵，几令吉就买到了。只是在这样一个贫困的地方，小孩儿被训练成这样，长大以后持续循环，下一代继续卖可怜。。。如果我也生在这样的地方，我想我也没有地想太多了。

我用二令吉买了这一个，我问她这是不是西瓜，她说是，然后付了钱，就帮我切西瓜。切完以后。。。

原来是黄瓜！！！

看起来只有八、九岁的孩子独自划船。

也有卖日常用品的船只。越南女生避开了镜头，也许是我的动作没有给到她亲切感。

我的越南朋友，他的父亲是华人，母亲是越南人。

我一直搞不懂这条有翅膀的小鱼。

在海上生活的人家也要晒衣服，干衣机绝对是奢侈的。

“谁来买我的鱼？”

漂浮着的家，漂浮着的生活，有没有一个地址？

哀怨的眼神。

在船里六个小时的无聊自拍。

卖水果的小木船。

下龙湾是世界自然文化遗产，但是当地人民并没有爱惜这个为他们带来生机的美丽地方。他们随手乱丢的果皮和垃圾，在海上漂着。

大船和小船的对比；富贵与贫穷的对比。

我在下龙湾住的饭店，Sunlight Hotel，像一柱擎天。

在路边兜售纪念品的妇女，纵然游客已经上了游览车，她们还是费尽所能向车子里的人卖东西。区区的几令吉，对她们来说很好用。在越南的政府规定最低薪资只有一百五十零吉。

这些假珍珠项链，她们都这样卖：五条十令吉！没有人买，她就换个口号：十条十令吉！还是没有人欣赏的话，她们再换口号：十五条十令吉！我还能说什么。。。

路边摊卖的鸭肉面和鸡肉面。

虽然已经放了几张电线缆的照片，但我还是想放多一些让大家看，因为真的太经典了！

纵横交错。

卖水果的可爱小女孩。

站在大路边卖“法国面包”，尘土是天然果酱，别有一番风味。

我和这位越南朋友去喝茶的时候，越南人和他说英语，和我说越南语。。。流汗。。。

虽然在自己的国家里辛苦，但总比到国外当劳工的来得好。

这是胡志明故居前的一个湖，大家都说湖边的那些树根长得像一尊一尊的佛像。

胡志明的故居。

胡志明陵墓，他的尸体就在里面，参观的过程是严肃的，他的尸体被保护得很好，安详地躺在玻璃棺材里供人瞻仰。

担着的，是一家人的未来。

越南的面积和马来西亚差不多，分别是329,560平方公里（世界第65名）和 329,750平方公里（世界第64名），但越南的人口却是我国的四倍。而超过一半的人口都拥有自己的电单车，所以路上的电单车川流不息。

这是我乘搭的亚洲航空班机，外形设计蛮漂亮的。