我的台湾女朋友们

来到台湾，一定会去永和豆浆买热豆浆、油条、油葱饼等等。老板娘很热情，知道我是外国人，就和我拍照，还要我介绍马来西亚朋友以后到她的店里吃东西呢。你问我好吃吗，当然好吃咯！还有水饺、蛋饼。。。很多很多！

我喜欢背包，我喜欢旅行，我喜欢认识新朋友，我喜欢体验生活，我们在国外一起生活过，现在大家回到自己的国家，站回自己的位置，说真的，像这样见面吃饭聊天聚会，一生能有几次？我珍惜着。其实大家的心里，还留着一个位置给予流浪的，只要坚信，会成真的。
这是我住的饭店房间，在我身边的是Emma，我们是在纽西兰的提不起认识的，她虽然以傻大姐的形象闯关这个世界，但是她其实心低是个很细心的女生，很会照顾人。我和她很好谈，我们两个常常聊天聊到笑个不停。她刚结婚了，在这里恭喜她！要幸福哦！
这是Mina，我喜欢叫她陈美娜，是我替她取的，她也习惯用这个名字了，我有时候也会叫她舞女，她有一首名曲：谁人应当了解，做舞女的爽快，一日五六七次，真的是爽歪歪！她住台中，所以我到台中去找她，我们逛了逢甲夜市，吃了很多，所有台湾小食我们都吃遍了！她今年来马来西亚找我两次了，两次都住我家，我们还去了吉隆坡、布城、云顶和马六甲。我记得我们在纽西兰认识的时候，她和可可还住了热汤给我和Eric喝。
这是Fish。我离开纽西兰的最后两个星期，她搬到担泥钉和我一起住。她蛮会煮的，尤其是饺子，超赞！在纽西兰的时候，她很喜欢戴冷帽，每天都不一样，我真怀疑她大概准备了800顶冷帽在行李箱里。
Kelly，我喜欢叫她邱姐姐，因为她和我同姓，而且很关心我，所以我就当她是姐姐一样，满足了我拥有一个姐姐的愿望。在纽西兰的时候，我还试过陪她走路回家，你们不知道那个路程的风有多冷，哈哈！她当天下班后就故意从宜兰搭捷运来台北见我，我很感动。她还送了我一瓶好好喝的红酒，单闻就知道是一瓶好酒了。
这是Jessie。她是精神病科辅导师，我们也是在纽西兰的时候认识的。我们见面以后，她传了一封很感性的简讯给我，说她觉得当晚的聚会令她想起很多关于纽西兰背包的往事，她有一股冲动想再流浪！
这是Summer。我们在士林见面，在纽西兰的时候，我们两个在不同的时间空间里和同样的人擦出不同的火花，所以那天谈起，事情如果用倒立的角度去看，真的会不一样。
这是Coco。我觉得她和Ella很像。在纽西兰的时候，她总是很搞笑，都演一些好笑的戏码。那晚，她带我到台北一家咖啡厅喝咖啡，咖啡很好喝，我保证，真的比Starbucks好喝！我们也聊得很晚，最后她载我回饭店，我住康定路，她家就在我住的饭店的后面，反正就是靠近西门町那一带，真巧！

流浪也好，背包也好，有些事情现在不做，一辈子都不会做了。

天灯

这一次是第二次来到台湾，距离上一次差不多两年了。我看一看手机，今天已经18号了，下个月就是圣诞节了，接着２００８很快就会结束。

我现在在高雄一间网咖里，顺便一提，上网３个小时，台币５０块，还送一杯饮料，便宜到！１５号抵达的那一天，我在台北住了一晚，第二天去了花莲，昨天去了台东。

昨晚在台东的时候，我住在小熊度假村，超赞的，因为我住在CARAVAN里呢！就是以前在纽西兰住过的那一种，我超怀念的！度假村的员工在傍晚办了一个团康活动，虽然节目内容很小孩，但是大家都玩儿得很尽兴。我最有印象的，是放天灯。在台湾叫天灯，不高，大概到一个成人的腰的高度；中国的叫孔明灯，基本上是一样的玩意儿，唯一的差别是孔明灯像一个成人那样高。

首先呢，所有人在灯上写上愿望，我也写了。之后，把火点燃，天灯就会升上去了。

不知道我的愿望会不会实现。
不知道天父看不看到我的愿望。
我担心我不够诚心。
可以再来一次吗？

迫不及待

我们已经是赤裸裸的了
却还不敢抬头面对
当有一天那盏灯不再为我们而亮
当有一天那张床不再是两个人的世界
就算用什么来掩饰都好
该羞耻的有够羞耻了
当初在我们迫不及待地把外层脱下来的时候
到底想清楚了吗
然而里面已经准备好了吗

Things are not covered
We dare not to face them
When it comes to the darkness one day
When it seperates the world of us one day
What else we can conceal
It is all about shame
Why we rushed for it
We never think twice for it
They are all damaged inside

I saw it

52 Days Past

已经52天了，这段没有你的日子，我选择了飞行，一直飞，穿梭在不同的国度，可以暂时甭想太多。这一次，我来到中国桂林，介于秋天和冬天之间，凉凉的，阳光在这个时候也显得如此懦弱；什么东西介于你和我之间，漂浮的？感情在什么时候变得如此脆弱？

我真的以为可以忘记你了。但是我身边的人，常问我，像我这样的空中飞人，有恋爱吗？我都回答得如此潇洒，被飞了，有什么关系，可你以为，我真的舍得吗？

看着你和你的新男友的照片，我无言以对。

你以为我真的不想你吗？

Its been 52 days living without you. I choose to fly, keep flying, to different countries, so that I can stop thinking of us for a while. This time, I came to Guilin, China, the weather is between autumn and winter, its cooling, the sun is showing its weakness in the sky; But do you know what is in between us? Something floating? When is the relationship came to the end?

I really thought that I can forget all about you. But the people around me, keep asking me the same question, do I get a lover since I flying like this. I always answered in my cool way, my lover dumped me, it is doesnt matter, in fact, do you think I can take it?

I have nothing to say when I saw the picture of your new boy friend and you, everything comes silence.

Dont you know that I still miss you, do you?

吃东西的时候想你；

在龙潭公园散步的时候想你；

自拍的时候想你；

喝酒的时候想你；

吃百香果的时候想你；

在银子岩里的时候想你；

看钟乳石的时候想你；

乘竹筏漂流的时候想你；

乘游船游阳朔漓江的时候想你；

接到绣球的时候想你；

掉进尧山的水井的时候想你；

看熊猫的时候想你；

看日月双塔的时候想你；

看象鼻山的时候想你；

看花海的时候想你；

看南宁博览会会馆的时候想你；

希望你看见我的笑容的时候，会想起我们以往那段快乐的时光。纵然你放弃了，我知道我还是得生活的。Muaks......

Hope you will think of our past when you see my smile. Even though you have given up, I know I still have to live. Muaks......

寂寞的空中飞人

接下来，我会继续飞。10月26日至11月2日去中国桂林、11月9日至13日去中国海南岛、11月15日至22日去台湾、11月28日至12月5日去日本北海道。

满满的行程，心情却成了强烈的对比。

穿梭一段又另一段感情中，爱为何总填不满又掏不空？
很快就风起云涌，人类的心是个无底洞
尝试亲吻尝试拥抱或沟通，没有好感再尝试也没有用
大多数人都相同，喜欢的只是爱情的脸孔

爱情的脸孔，长怎样？

我记得那天，巴厘岛的气温高达摄氏38度。我很怕热，汗没有停止的意思，在我快要中暑之际，我终于找到一家卖椰水的路边摊。我喝了。

还是生病了。像是爱情的脸孔。

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夜的宁静/ The night is so silent
是时候好好反省/ It is time to think about it
月的阴晴圆缺就像我的心/ My heart is just like the moon with different shape
夜下着雨/ The night is rainning
天在哭泣/ The sky is crying
不知道何时才放晴/ When does the sunshine come
我忽然非常想念你/ I suddenly miss you so much
你的背影/ Your everything
让我失去了理性/ Makes me loose my rationality
你的放弃/ You gave up
让我迷失了自己/ Made me lost myself
你的离去/ You left me
就像刺青/ Like a tattoo
永远烙印在我的心/ Forever carved on my heart
是如此痛而如此的美丽/ So painful and so beautiful
我努力的想哭泣却哭不出泪滴/ I'm trying to cry but there is no tears
一次又一次的灰心才发现早已麻痹/ Is my heart paralysis?

尼泊尔遗忘之旅 （第一章）

2008年10月11日，我来到了久违的尼泊尔。我是微笑的，但是你带给我的忧伤我还未完全释怀，所以请暂时忘记我的眼神，也请忘记我的招牌笑容。
11Oct2008, I came to Nepal. I am smiling, always. But part of the sadness that you given me is still with me, so please forget about my eyes, and please forget about my smile.

坐在尼泊尔航空班机里，刚好我坐在右边的靠窗位，清楚地一览了喜玛拉雅山脉。上面是雪山，下面是云端；外面是坚强，里面呢？
I am so lucky to sit at the window seat of the right in the plane, so I can view the Himalaya clearly. Up to the top part is snow mountain, the bottom part is clouds; The surface looks strong, how about the deep of our heart?

一名妇女蹲在大路边，面对着外墙，不像在乞讨，是在思过吗？身边的男孩，大热天围着围巾，是内心不够温暖吗？

A woman is sitting on a side of the road and facing the wall, she doesn't look like begging something, is she thinking of her whole life? The young boy put on a scaft in this hot day, is the heart not warm enough?

生活？生活。Life? Life.

亲爱的苹果，你的颜色让我觉得生命是精彩的；亲爱的香蕉，你的形状让我觉得生命是精彩的。谁买了你们，我会不会记住，那没有什么，最重要的是，你让我精彩过，至少，这一刻。

My dear apple, your color makes my life wonderful; My dear banana, your shape makes my life wonderful. I will never remember who bought you, its doesnt matter, you just need to know that, you made my life wonderful, at least, now.

我们是否正在等待着同样的东西？我们用了一生多少时间等待？等待会漫长吗？等待会泪流满面吗？我等待着。

Are we waiting for the same thing? How much time we have been used to wait in our life? Is waiting take times? Is waiting make people cry? I am waiting.

加德满都是尼泊尔的首都，流行服装也在这里盛行。其实挂在身上的布华丽不华丽，因人而异，我只是想知道，内心的华丽。

Kathmandu is the capital city of Nepal, fashion is also running in here. But no matter how nice is a fashion, and how many dress we change, please dont forget to dress up our heart.

兜售笛子的男人。有些东西，我们明知道是如此地困难，却依然坚持着；我相信，总会有人买笛子。

A flute seller. Sometimes, we keep the faith, no matter how hard it is; I believe, there must be someone to buy the flute, give time.

这些电缆线是在和越南的比赛吗？出自人们手下的凌乱，也许乱不过现代人的思想。

Are these cable having a competition with Vietnam's? Look at all these people's creation, how tidy is a human's mind?

你正在做什么？我们的路走到了哪里？

What are you doing now? Where is the way that we walked half?

《尼泊尔遗忘之旅第二章》即将上映。有一种会旋转的东西，转着他们的命运。。。

《Nepal Trip of Forgotten》 is coming soon. Something is rotating, and so is life...

珍惜一切，就算没有拥有

《非卖品》 我会发表4首新歌噢！也会和大家分享我的生活。虽然没有很伟大的什么，但眼泪是闪烁的。
Please come to the music sharing concert, I will sing and share my life with you.

Name of Concert: Not For Sale
Featuring singers: Bot/ Emily/ Edwin/ Fry
Date: 18 Oct 2008 (Saturday)
Time: 8pm
Address: Gereja Katholik Kristus Cahaya, Jalan 53, Desa Jaya, Kepong 52100, Selangor.

Thanks.

18 Days Past

已经过了十八天的单身生活，当初以为不能康复的我，心情总算平复得七七八八了。这些日子，很感谢那些陪伴着我的朋友，纵然有些人也完全不知道发生什么事，但就是想说声谢谢。最近我都在旅行社里兼职，兼职的时间性质比较自由，上天是眷顾着我的，而且和同事们也相处得很开心。除了上班，我也在教会里，和事奉心弦这个以音乐做福传的团体一起举办一些活动，活动正在筹备着，等正式宣传的时候，希望大家会多多支持！再过几天，我就飞了，不知道这一次在海南岛会不会遇到一些什么新鲜的事情，我期待着。。。其实，我还想说。。。从前我常常为了工作和爱情，从来都没有主动联络朋友，不知道是不是年纪越来越大的关系，有时候在收拾房间看见过去的东西，我总是回忆起过往。然后我自己在分析着，才发现原来自己的人生分成了这么多段，而每一段时期都有不同的人陪在身边，到头来没有一个是陪我度过全部的。。。或许我这样说，会对不起玫瑰，如果让玫瑰看到了这一段，我大概会被揍个脸青鼻肿吧。我最近在看《溏心风暴》，我知道我是很慢，每个人都在看《家好月圆》了，就只能怪自己忙咯，我也没法像我的朋友那样，只需用几天的时间甚至牺牲睡眠的时间来“煲剧”哈哈！前几天和朋友去唱K，他再多一年就会成为飞机师了！我很期待，他说他会载我飞，飞机坐多了，但是由朋友来开，我真的觉得很兴奋！



这十八天来，你过得好吗？你不再想我了，对吗？

I’ve been living in single life for 18 days, at first I really thought that I can’t take it, but now I finally feel better. I wanna thank those who accompanied me these days, even though some of you don’t really know what happened on me; just give me a chance to say thanks here. I am now working as a part timer in my ex travel agency, I feel comfortable and more freedom as a part timer, and also feel happy to work together with all colleagues. Besides working, I also come back to the church team – Heartstrings to run evangelization and some events, all the activities is still in processing, once I started the promotional tours, hope all of you give a big support! Just another few days more, I will be flying to Hainan Island again, I’m expecting something special to happen in this trip, trying to make the journey wonderful and meaningful… In fact, I wanted to say... because of busy on working and my emotional life, I was seldom looking and yum cha with my friends, I think maybe I’m getting old, sometimes when I clean my room and see some old things, all these make me recall, and back to the past. And then I found out, there are so many different parts in my whole life, and different people were being with me in different parts, at the end, no one was with me throughout the whole life; it is just keep changing new face and new face… I should apologize to Roserose for saying that, if Roserose had read this then I think I will die. I am also watching a Hong Kong drama Hearts of Greed , I know I am very slow, because everybody is already watching the Ga Hou Yue Yuen , but I just don’t have enough time, I can’t watch it every night and sacrifice my sleeping time like all my friends haha! I went to karaoke with my friend in last few days; he will become a pilot soon! I am so exited, cause he said he will fly me! Even though I have so many flying experience but still feeling exited!

18 days past… how are you? You don’t miss me anymore, do you?

不曾停止飞行

《Never Stop Flying》

01.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia/ Hainan Island, China.
02.10.2008 Hainan Island, China.
03.10.2008 Hainan Island, China.
04.10.2008 Hainan Island, China.
05.10.2008 Hainan Island, China/ Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
06.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
07.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
08.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
09.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
10.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
11.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia/ Kathmandu, Nepal.
12.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
13.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
14.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
15.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
16.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
17.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal.
18.10.2008 Kathmandu, Nepal/ Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
19.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia/ Bali, Indonesia.
20.10.2008 Bali, Indonesia.
21.10.2008 Bali, Indonesia.
22.10.2008 Bali, Indonesia/ Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
23.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
24.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
25.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
26.10.2008 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia/ Guilin, China.
27.10.2008 Guilin, China.
28.10.2008 Guilin, China.
29.10.2008 Guilin, China.
30.10.2008 Guilin, China.
31.10.2008 Guilin, China.
01.11.2008 Guilin, China.
02.11.2008 Guilin, China/ Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

不论飞到多远，我会记得所有我们的画面，可知我多迷信我们。

Mcgregor Left Me Alone

这是我第一次养的鱼，是打架鱼，是你送给我的。可是十号那晚，你跟我提出分手了。这是我们第二次分手，你说我是你的初恋，你还想和其他人一起看看外面的世界。然后，我们的鱼--麦格礼格，不知道是不是感应到我们的分离，从鲜艳的蓝色和红色，转成了暗淡的深蓝色和深红色。没想到，昨天就死了。像我们的爱情，忽然之间，死了。

你不知道，其实，再过几天，就是我们在一起的三个月纪念日了，我们最后还是跨不过，就死了。

明天的中秋节，我们分裂了。

好想念你。我还记得我们相识的那一天。你记得吗？

还有，你说过：“无论你得了什么病，我都会一直爱着你。” 爱着你。

This is the first time I rare a fish, its a fighting fish, you gave me that. But on the 10th of this month, you told me to break up again. This is the second time you said this, you said I am your first love, you feel like to be with others to experience more. And then, our fish -- Mcgregor, I guess it sensed the broken between us, therefore it changes its color, from sharp blue and sharp red turn to dark blue and dark red. And out of my expectation, Mcgregor dies yesterday. Like our love, suddenly, die.

You dont know, just another few days more, we have been together for 3 months, but still we cant pass it at the end, and die.

Tomorrow is Moon Cake Festival, people get reunion on this day, we break.

I miss you so much. I still remember the first day we met. Do you remember?

And you told me before:" No matter how sick you are in the future, I will always be with you and love you." Loving you.

《比傻瓜还傻》词曲唱：Fry Hew

这是一个真实的故事，我的朋友他失恋的故事。他最伤心的那几晚，我也实在看不过眼，所以一天晚上，我坐在钢琴前面，幻想自己就是这位朋友，从他的角度出发完成了这一首歌。

比傻瓜还傻，我总是觉得，爱一个人太深的时候，就会不小心变成了傻瓜，如果两情相悦，一起当傻瓜是挺浪漫的，但如果只有自己当傻瓜，那真的很傻很傻。。。。。。

This song is based on a true story, it is a love story about my friend. I remember that period when he was really down, I can't stand on it, therefore one night, I played my piano, and imagined that I was my friend, to complete this song.

The song title , I feel that when you love someone really deep, you will become a foolish, if two persons fool together, it shall be a romantic thing, but if you are doing it alone, then it is really foolish......

豆浆油条

那天在中国海南岛，我没有到酒店的西餐厅吃已经包含的早餐，我选择了永和的豆浆油条。这间永和餐厅是我每次到中国必定光临的，传统的热豆浆，配上新鲜的油条，我就喜欢这样！还有一碗甜甜的龟苓膏。太赞了！

Wanderlust VS Je t'aime

记忆是很奇特的东西，我一个人在等待捷运的时候，一些回忆就飘过了。我突然想起我还未认识你之前，我以为我可以就这样一直单身，直到我申请到英国的工作签证，就离开马来西亚，继续流浪的日子，延续上一趟唱游纽西兰的精神。

只是没想到，你让我决定留下来了。

可是马来西亚，到底适合人类居住吗？还是我是异类？

只是没想到，我还是为了你而留下来了。

Memory is something special, when I was waiting for the train at the station, memories came into my mind. I suddenly think of the days before I met you, I thought I will just keep living in single life, until I get the UK working holiday visa, to leave Malaysia as soon as I could, to continue my wanderlust's life, to continue my New Zealand's fascinating trip.

But you made me stay.

Is Malaysia a good place for people to stay? Or am I abnormal?

But still I choose to stay here for you. For you. For you.

For you.

Dont Speak. Dont Hear. Dont See

神赐给了我一切，包括我的嘴巴耳朵眼睛；神也赐给了我动力，包括说话倾听观看。
God gives me everything, including my mouth ears and eyes; God also give us energy, to talk, to hear, to look.

有时候我不想说话，有时候我不想倾听，有时候我不想观看。
But sometimes I don't like to chat, sometimes I don't like to listen, sometimes I don't like to see.

幸好除了这些，我还有一双手，一双可以创造东西和摧毁世界的手；而我的双手却也依赖着我的脑细胞。
Luckily I still have my hands, which can create and destroy things; But still my brain controls my hands.

我的脑细胞知道我有选择任何东西的自由。
I always know that I have my freedom to make any decision.

“自由”是如此地吸引人，无论多么难得到，始终被全人类追随着.
"Freedom" is so attractive, no matter how hard to get it or how far it is, everybody is chasing it crazy.

拥有了自由就可以选择；选择一些让自己看起来比较快乐的事情。
I would like to choose something that make myself look happier.

我也作了我的选择，我选择用双手遮掩我的嘴巴，遮掩我的耳朵，遮掩我的眼睛。
But in the meantime I look for happiness, I cover my mouth, I cover my ears, and I cover my eyes.

请问，请问。有谁可以借我？
By the way, can someone lend me?

借我一双手。
Lend me your hands.

没有蜡烛还是亮了

昨天是我的二十四岁生日，我做了什么？到时代广场看电影，然后去国家体育馆看Astro新秀决赛，之后去“爱的寂寞”吃夜宵。本来想自己亲手调酒喝的，可是时间也晚了，就想下一次再喝。今晚没有回家，到了女朋友的家过夜，其实有一点怕，因为她妈妈在家，我大概凌晨两点到，进了房间，要去洗澡的时候，结果她妈还是出现了，这是第二次和伯母“正面交锋”，我叫了她一声“安娣”就进入浴室了，吓死我了。。。



我没有收到很多生日礼物，基本上就只有我的女朋友送我，就是上面这张照片 Quicksilver的凉鞋和杯子。她很细心，买到了刚刚好的尺寸给我。从小到大我都不穿凉鞋只穿球鞋的，可是这次我会改改这个习惯了，除了要穿上爱人的细心之外，也要秀一秀我的幸福！鞋子的皮带是猪皮制成的，很舒服。

生日这天刚好是Astro新秀决赛，我和四个好朋友到了国家体育馆现场看秀。其实我从来都没有看电视的习惯，所以对于当天比赛的五位参赛者都不认识，我只认识我最爱的评审包小松，哈哈！看过他们的表演，我心目中的冠军会是林建辉的妹妹 Debby，但是听说她是没有星味和没有观众缘，我个人是觉得不能接受这样的理由，如果昨晚的赛场是美国，相信冠军非她莫数了；至于得到季军的豪仁，评审给他的评语是不会转气所以不会转音而且还常常破音，我真不明白他为何能凭人气就打败Natalie 和 Danny。。。



妈妈刚才问我昨晚是不是在女朋友家睡，又问我礼物是不是女朋友送的，她问我是不是有女朋友了，我否认了。去年的耶诞节和今年的农历新年我也带了女朋友回家，然后分手了。。。



我记得去年的生日，我独自走在纽西兰的首都--风城威灵顿，一整天在闲逛博物馆，为的是等待爱人的一封祝福的简讯，结果。。。十二点过了。。。我还给自己希望，我跟我自己说，马来西亚还没有十二点，再等多一会儿应该会收到。四个小时过了，马来西亚的时间也过了。。。我传了一封简讯问她，她说她忘记了。。。



忘记了。。。我站在风城，任风刮过我的脸。。。刺刺的疼痛，化成麻木；爱情，从盛开到腐坏，从腐坏到尘埃。。。



幸好，那都是过去了。。。



今年很幸福，因为有你，你知道吗？看见你，就好像风筝有风，闭上眼睛，就想海豚有海。虽然今年没有我很爱吃的蛋糕，虽然没有点燃蜡烛，但是我却看见光亮了。。。。。。



你呢？你看见我看见的吗？



Yesterday was my birthday. I went to Times Square for a movie, after that I went to National Stadium for Astro Star Quest 2008, and then went to “The Loneliness of Love” restaurant for supper. At first I wanted to mix my own peach vodka with orange juice, but it was too late, so might be doing that next time. I was not going home, I went to my baby’s house, and in fact I felt afraid because her family is there. If I’m not mistaken, I entered her house at about 2 in the morning. While I wanted to get to bathroom from her room, her mother showed up. That was the second time I met her mother, I called her “aunt” and went for shower, wooo……



I don’t get many presents for my birthday, or I should say that I only got present from my baby. The presents are Quicksilver’s sandal (Carver Le) and glass. She is a real good lover, cause she bought me the exactly size for me without asking me that. I don’t actually wear sandal since I knew how to walk, but I think I need to change this habit now, because I want to wear my “love” and show people my “sweetest and happiness”! Part of the sandal is made by pig skin, it’s so comfortable.

About the Astro Star Quest 2008, I went for the live show with 4 good friends. Everybody knows I don’t watch television, therefore I didn’t know all the 5 Astro stars, I only know one of the judger, and his name is Bao Xiao Song, haha! For me, I will always give the first prize to Debby, but everybody is saying that she’s not a superstar look persons, and fans not really like her, I myself cant accept this kind of reason in a singing contest, if the show was in America, Debby must be the one who win the first prize. The one who got number 3 is Haoren, the judger said that he doesn’t know how to “change his breath”, don’t know how to “change his pitch” and his voice “broke” for few times, so I really don’t understand how can he win Natalie and Danny…..

Just now my mum was asking me did I stay overnight in girl friend’s house, and asked me is the present from my girl friend, and asked me whether I have a girl friend now, I said “no”! I remember that I brought my girl friend home in last Christmas and Chinese New Year, at the end we separated.

I still remember my last birthday in 2007, I walked alone in New Zealand’s capital city, the wind city – Wellington, I was walking around in the museum, just to make the time passing by quicker and waiting for a text from my lover. But…… twelve passed……I still gave myself hope, I told myself, Malaysia is not twelve yet, maybe I will receive her text later. After 4 hours, Malaysia’s twelve also passed by…… I sent her a text to asked her why, she said she forgot……

Forgotten…… I stood in the wind city, to let the wind scratch my face…… Just a little bit pain; Love, from flame to dust……

By the way, they are all passed......

I feel so glad this year, because of you, do you know that? Being with you, it’s like the kite has wind, when I close my eyes, like the dolphin has sea. Even though there was not my favorite birthday cake, even though there was no candles for me, but I’ve seen light……

So how about you? Can you see what I've seen?